John Denver Looking for Space – YouTube.
I love this song and hadn’t heard it before. It seems to describe my path of my life, since early childhood. I saw so much beauty around me in the desert and mountains but also in my memories of past lives, the other dimensions I walked into, the music that filled my dreams all night, and the spirits I communicated with and yet I was told only the mountains and deserts were real.
I looked around me at the jealousy, dysfunction, and pain that wove itself throughout the good parts of my family, extended family and town, and wondered why we would choose to live this way. From early on I went looking for answers, leaving my parent’s church at age 8, traveling through other churches in town, and other spiritual paths from there. I spent years focusing on personal growth and healing and still do.
This focus became my path and my life, looking for truth, and yet also looking for my place in it. I’ve never felt particularly at home anywhere, except for the Navajo land where I briefly lived in the early 80’s. The community wasn’t welcoming but I remembered the land from other times. Otherwise I have mostly felt like a stranger in a strange land, trying to get back to or forward to that land, that home, the place within and without that I briefly was cocooned in during my early childhood moments.
Those moments were suspended a midst severe asthma attacks and hospital stays, family strife, and school yard rejection, but they were my heaven and it was real. And I know it will be real again and that it is THAT, that I have been attempting to help others find through my work with individuals and it is my work to share it with the world.
I truly believe that place of living in our truth, living in love, and living in our power as creators is where we are headed. We are on the cusp of stepping into the light, our light, the light of Spirit, the light of this world, releasing all the darkness so we all can shine.
Care to join me?