Completely Random Post….Neptune’s Chamber :)

I knew I hadn’t posted in quite awhile but hadn’t realized it had been THAT long since a post was put up.  I’ve been so overwhelmed with the Spiritual work I am doing, getting attacked by the dark for doing the work, along with the many shifts taking place in my body and the pain that comes from doing some of the assisting work I’m doing too, that I just haven’t wanted to share that part of my life on here, and that is the biggest part of my life right now. 

For those who have been reading this blog for awhile, you know about my mystical childhood of talking to “Jesus and the gang” in my backyard, talking to other spirits, remembering past lives since early early childhood, walking in and out of other dimensions, along with other similar paranormal/mystical happenings.  But what I haven’t shared is how whimsical my living room was that I grew up in, in Southern AZ.  On one hand, my parents were conservative Republicans, my Dad played golf, we played catch, both my parents were very inward with their emotions, so not much sharing and they both were aghast at the strange things I would attempt to share.

But looking back now, I believe my Mother was more whimsical and mystical than she allowed herself to present. My Dad was such a strong authoritarian to the whole family and sometimes was emotionally abusive to my Mom, so looking back now, I wonder if he got her to suppress much of her creative nature.

Let me give you some background first.  At age 2, my parents were on vacation in Savannah, Georgia, sitting by the pool and doing who knows what, and the story goes that I jumped into the pool, 2 years old, and a stranger asked them “Is that your child that just went under for the second time?”  It was never explained to me why the person hadn’t just jumped into the pool to save me or why my parents were too busy to watch their 2 year old, but I was always adventurous, climbing out of my crib, climbing everything in the neighborhood so exploring was in my nature.  Plus, water was my biggest love, next to music.

I taught myself to swim, before starting swimming lessons, by just jumping into the pool and figuring it out.  Obviously almost drowning didn’t deter my love for water. I used to imagine myself a mermaid and hang out at the bottom of the pool for as long as I could, even though I’d had asthma since age 2, and hence struggles with breathing.

So…here comes the living room story…..We had a long living room and at the end of it, looking out to our backyard, was a large window, like the photo above. Our window was all big squares though, rather than the smaller bottom row of windows in the above picture.   Each window square had a ledge that faced inward and on each shelf, my Mom had placed a crystal decanter filled with different colored water.  To top that display off, our walls, all 4 of them, were painted a very dark teal.  I was home often with asthma, and during those times in that living room, sun flowing in filtering through those sparkling decanters of all the colors of the rainbow, dark teal walls surrounding me, I’d imagine being down in Neptune’s chamber, in the ocean.

I never saw anything like that in any other of my friend’s homes, and never asked my Mom about her inspiration to create such a room.  It seemed like something my Dad would have opposed but he didn’t.  So for many years we lived with this dark depths of the ocean living room, surrounded by Neptune’s treasures 🙂 It was a delight for my imagination and went hand in hand with the other mystical parts of my life. The veil between “normal” life, past lives, and metaphysical life was so thin for me that it all wove together.

Did any of you experience strange decor in your childhood homes? Was there something that inspired you to explore?

Thanks for reading my blog, liking it, commenting on it, sharing it with others and being patient with my lack of regular posting at the moment.

Much love to you all, katelon

 

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Empaths and Narcissists

I really found value in this article.  I am an empath, have been one through most of my lifetimes and have often been snagged by narcissists. I’ve been working to learn to identify them better and  change my behavior that attracts and allows them to do what they do.

So after reading this article, I had a “talk” with my light team to better understand it.  I can see that when I try to “fix” someone, is when I really run into trouble, as that moves me out of my center and then allows the manipulations that a narcissist uses.  Or when I move deeply into feeling their pain, then end up apologizing for them treating me badly, as if it is all my fault.

I have often been a “healer” in most of my lifetimes and professionally in this one, along with my agreements to take on and process the pain of this planet and humanity.  I don’t want to stop this work of mine but am wanting to learn how to better take care of myself.

The light explained that if I just “step up to the plate”, in offering my healing work and my life as an empath, with no attachment to outcome, or allowing anyone to entice me to move “past the plate”, then that will help keep and establish my boundary, keep me in my center and lessen any manipulative behavior by others.  They also reminded me that another way I can get into trouble is when I am feeling a need for validation, acceptance, etc. and seek it from the other, rather than just seeking it within me or from Spirit.

I loved the imagery of just staying in my center as I “step up to the plate”, and either tuning into my heart or connecting upward with my team and Source.  That gives me something to hang on to in my memory to help keep me operating cleanly and keep me from falling into victim.

Here is the article:

http://in5d.com/empath-narcissist/

Hope you enjoy it and my notes are helpful for you!

 

 

My Wish for You, My Single Friend…

Ok…this is better! I wanted to share this post as I related to it so much, not only for single people but ALL people. Learning to truly love and honor ourselves is perhaps the deepest lesson of being human, and I feel is important for all relationships.

I’m looking forward to the shifts coming to this planet that will have each of us owning and knowing our inherent beauty, worth, deservingness of love and respect. From this knowing, it will flow out to honoring all others and the planet and finally bring peace and cooperation across the world.

My Passion!

Photo by Katelon Jeffereys

I chose this photo as it is a Passion Flower.  I wanted to share about what I am passionate about.

I’m passionate about helping bring about a new world of light, love, cooperation, clean air/water/earth and airwaves. I’m passionate about having a light based financial system, debt forgiveness around the world, light based governments in TRUE service to this planet and humanity.  I’m passionate about us finally joining forces with light based ET’s and becoming great galactic citizens.  I’m passionate about every man, woman, child and creature on this planet being valued, cared for, nurtured, healthy, whole, safe and able to express all of their divine nature, gifts and talents.

As I’ve mentioned, things weren’t great for me growing up…maybe financially, but emotionally, health wise, mentally, etc. it was quite challenging.  And yet, that is what led me to my true work as a professional holistic and spiritual healer, knowing that I’m just the midwife, as healing happens THROUGH me and through the person whom I am working with, with Spirit guiding the way. It’s what led me to lead Spiritual ceremony, teach creative music and movement to children, lead public workshops as well as taking workshops to youth, government agencies, non-profits, businesses,  and corporations.

I was able to move myself from years of deep depression and suicidal thoughts to strength, inner calmness, and the courage to take on my now 149 week journey of living on faith and trust. And all the 16+ therapies I learned were ones that worked for me, so I learned them to share with others.

I know this is a challenging time as we transition from the darkness that has held this planet for so long, into a light based world.  There is much we are releasing as at the same time, we are being blasted with so much light and love to move us forward.

I am passionate about helping all of you in any way I can.  Doing my work is so much fun and brings me so much joy. I love digging into my vast tool bag and being guided in what would work best with each of you, to help you make this transition with more ease and grace.

Please check out my website http://www.empowerandbalance.com and check out what is offered there.

For those who are ready to play, I am offering a 20% off special for Sept. for those who follow my blog. Just let me know when you contact me.  There is so much I can offer via skype and by phone.

For those who choose the free stuff, there are pages of stress release/energy medicine techniques with instructions.

Let me know if I can help in any way.

Enjoy these times! We are so graced to live at this time on the planet and to be a part of this amazing transformation.  This morning, while standing in the shower, I could feel my entire body pulsing with energy, each cell vibrating with light as if the physical parameters of my body don’t exist anymore.  It is happening now friends, please allow and embrace it.

Much love to you all, katelon

Survive or Celebrate….another poem

Those of you who have been reading my blog for awhile, know that I grew up remembering horrendous past lives of torture and heinous deaths, along with talking to spirits and knowing my destiny to come in this lifetime,  yet being told by doctors I was crazy and by my parents “face reality”. It took many, many years of counseling, various holistic therapies, working on myself and following my spiritual journey to heal that terror, fear and disconnect, and move into embracing who I am and the reality I believe in and work toward for myself and the world. This poem came from that journey.

Photo from google images

Survive or Celebrate

A scared child sits inside
a strong woman’s breast.
Remembrances of a lonely
childhood sorrow and fears.

Do loved ones always leave?

Letting the child carry on
struggling to survive
in a world where dreams
aren’t reality.

Love shares joy and pain
commitments are for now
not forever.
Fight, defend
or let go and celebrate.

A battlefield or
a dance,
the choice is yours.

© Katelon T. Jeffereys

What Do You Desire?

I recently read the book “Appetites” by Caroline Knapp. This book is a powerful and honest look at her years living with anorexia, and also dives much deeper into what it is like to be a woman: the roles we are handed, the conflicts with our Mothers and the female role, how society treats and judges women, how we judge ourselves, and how that affects our ability or inability to even acknowledge our appetites/desires, let alone get them met.

I receive numerous emails every day about petitions to sign for political, environmental or social justice causes, so am reminded regularly about how poorly women are treated all over the world: child brides, honor killings, rape, incest, poverty, domestic violence, the sex trade and more. Even in the US there are more women and children killed or abused every day than died in the Vietnam war. Women still earn less than men for the same jobs. Powerful women, political women, still often elicit nasty judgements against themselves for behavior admired in men. The laws in place and proposed to govern a woman’s health and reproductive rights are appalling, with politicians still blaming women for their rapes, and blaming their sexuality as being an issue…the same men who want to have sex with these women?! Feminism may have made some changes in our culture but not many.

Looking at this in a larger more metaphysical way, you can see it in the repression of the Goddess and how healers and medicine women were killed as witches. The female has been vilified in many of the world’s religions. Patriarchy took over and we’ve had wars ever since.

These are some of the things I have worked to change in my private holistic/spiritual healing practice and my social justice activism. But I also see it as a bigger picture because I believe with the ruling elite’s agenda and the cabal basically running this world for so long, ALL people have been kept from truly becoming aware of their deep desires as well as being able to fulfill them. How could any of us do that without balanced, healthy and loved female and male aspects of ourselves?

I loved reading the book in light of the changes now taking place on the planet, as we work to finally and completely oust the dark’s rule, reclaim our “original blessing” and existence as a divine co-creator with Spirit. And I appreciated the private places it led me to as I examined the issues I grew up with about self identity and lack of self acceptance, handed to me by my wounded Mother and Father, and reinforced by a wounded society.

I grew up thin, so was always able to eat what I chose as far as weight goes, but did grow up with various allergies and chronic asthma. So as I moved into my attempt to heal myself, many various diets were explored and battles were waged against foods I craved and yet knew weren’t good for me. My Mother was a wonderful cook and baker, and not affectionate, so baked goods replaced my needed hugs. I’m a baker as well, so this sugar war has been waged over and over throughout the years.

I had one brief bout of anorexia the summer and fall before graduating from college. I had been teaching for a year at my son’s wonderful alternative pre-school but was required to quit that job and teach in a “real school” as a student teacher, in order to receive my degree in education. The upcoming stress of that, and the experience of working within the restrictions of that public school, the knowledge that I was graduating with a degree I didn’t know what to do with and the then requirement to fully support my son and I alone, led me to put weight on for the first time in my life. I had no idea how to respond to that as it seemed to have nothing to do with how much or little I ate, so I just mostly quit eating. By the time I graduated that semester I had given myself an ulcer.

Although I didn’t grow up fat, I was well acquainted with the teasing and judging, at the hand of school mates, for being thin, having freckles, wearing glasses, having asthma and being smart. So the self judging part of childhood seemed to rule my life. I also was quite aware of how others were treated, as my early activism was born. My family was quite critical and that led me to struggle with identifying what I truly desired and left me feeling guilty for wanting anything at all. Both my parents weren’t able to pursue their dreams and my Father didn’t even want to be married to my Mother but remained so under his Father’s rule. So the model of healthy awareness of desires, what would be fulfilling and the acceptance and healthy acquisition of those, was absent in my family. and life.

I am grateful to have tools to use to address all of this now as well as my understanding of how this fits with the bigger picture transformation taking place on the planet. We are all in the midst of clearing out the emotional baggage and limitations that have plagued us for so long. As we move up to higher dimensions and toward ascension only loving, light selves can make that transition. Anything else is too dense. So I welcomed this opportunity that this book afforded me and the healing it led me to do.

Imagine a world where we grow up loving ourselves, knowing our self to be lovable, fully attuned to our body, our sexuality, our desires and the ability and support to pursue the fulfillment of those in a healthy way. Imagine a world where women are honored and respected, and the female aspect within all of us is celebrated and nurtured. I’m excited to live in THAT world! And it starts within us.

What are your deepest desires?

What are you hungry for and perhaps weren’t allowed to have?

What would fill and nurture that most vulnerable part of yourself?

These are great questions to ask yourself.

Please join the conversation and share below, too!

Thanks for reading, thanks for being a part of this world and it’s transformation, thanks for being YOU, wondrous YOU!!!!

Accepting Responsibility In These Transforming Times!

I’ve spent many, many lifetimes working for the transformation that I believe we are experiencing now. The dark elite has kept humanity controlled a very long time; enslaving us, lying to us, doing all they could, very creatively, to keep us ill, poison the earth and keep humans in fear, dis-empowered and controlled.

We all might complain about the destruction to the earth, the corruption in governments, unemployment, and all the other situations and conditions we don’t like. At the same time though, as long as we’ve been able to complain, we’ve put the culprit outside ourselves. When we do that, we can, out of victim-hood, put the responsibility on “them”. We might not like these situations but at the same time, how many of us have stepped forward to do something to change these situations, change ourselves?

Many people get stuck in that place of blaming their parents for their behavior and life situations. Yet, when we become adults, we must, yes, look at those beginnings but then take charge and do the work to change ourselves and create the person we choose to be, as well as create the life we desire. To continue to blame our parents keeps us stuck in adolescence. It is the same for us as global citizens in this powerful time as we move into becoming galactic citizens. We need to accept responsibility and become accountable.

The world is now being flooded with love and light energy, the dark elite are being overcome and their strongholds are crumbling. But just as we celebrate the upcoming shift, we also will need to accept the responsibility for our lives and the earth. This requires us to grow up into the adult co-creators we are, and leave our teen rebellion behind.

I’ve spent much of my life, working to heal myself, help others and change those conditions that have affected the world. And yet, when I realize how much responsibility we will be stepping into, it is a little unnerving! What happens when all the blocks are removed, limitations gone? Am I ready to fully step into my power? Are you ready to step into yours?

I realized that it can feel scary and yet, I believe we WILL be guided, and remembering the wisdom, knowledge, talents and skills we’ve gained in other lifetime experiences and different dimensions. Yes, this will require and create change within our bodies and minds, relationships, life situations, and this can be overwhelming.

But I feel we will have great support. I know that part of my bigger mission has been and will be even more in the future to assist others through these changes. As long as we can stay grounded, remain in our hearts, finding places of peace, I feel we can move gracefully into this responsibility.

As my blog and website name states, empowerment and balance will be the tools of the day!!!!

Responsibility….the ability to respond with wisdom, grace and ease. It also includes accountability. We get to decide who we want to be and what kind of world we live in. This is exciting stuff!!!!

So please, breathe deep, anchor into this beautiful planet, drink up all the support from Gaia, Spirit and all the beings here to support us. And let me know if I can help you in any way! I’m holding out my hand…come join me. You have the keys to your new life!

Staying True In The Midst Of Other’s Perceptions!

Throughout this almost year long journey I have been mostly staying in other people’s homes. Stepping into someone else’s home involves stepping into different house rules, perceptions, beliefs, needs, expectations and many of these are not overtly expressed. Some of the places I have stayed I have arranged through bartering my healing therapies, dog walking, cleaning, cooking, and organizing. among other skills. I’m not the best negotiator, as my nature is giving and generous, but my communication is clear, so I have done what I could to clearly and cleanly negotiate an arrangement that honored me as well as the other person. What I often found though, is that although I often give much more than is agreed upon, the other person would often change the agreement mid-stream, demanding more or even turning it around to make it appear that I hadn’t given enough?! This was always a shocking experience to me as I thought all had been clear in the beginning and as I stated, I always made sure I gave more than I had agreed upon.

I have always been a flexible, adaptable person, pretty easy going, and focused on being aware of others’ needs so as to keep things going smoothly. This journey though has led me into homes of hosts with almost OCD demands and house rules that even the most astute and dedicated house guest could not begin to adhere to or even decipher; homes of hosts living in their own words “just this side of disgusting” as far as cleanliness; homes of hosts that were controlling, raging alcoholics, noisy, quiet, outgoing, reclusive, vegetarians, meat eaters, and everything in between. Navigating all of these varied situations in addition to the different climates and cities to smaller towns has been quite challenging and stressful. And yet, I’m sure there has been a reason for this journey.

I know without a doubt that I have brought healing to so many people and areas because my recipients have acknowledged this, and I know that it has brought me healing and helped me stand in my power more and taught me to set better boundaries. Along with all this learning though, questions still remain.

I am presently staying with a warm, generous couple who love God, love Jesus, believe strongly in their beliefs and state that they don’t judge. And yet…..when I offer to do the healing work I have done since childhood, the work I was led to through my spiritual experiences with Jesus, my work is deemed unacceptable. When I have questioned why it was deemed acceptable that Jesus could do healing work and yet my work is deemed questionable, perhaps even coming from the dark, it is explained that ONLY Jesus could do healing work?! And yet, these people believe in prayer and manifestations they have received through this prayer, which is invoking God and Jesus. But healing work that is invoking Jesus and God’s energy that flows through all of us, is deemed darkness.

I feel so sad when I run into this belief system, as in my understanding, this very belief keeps people feeling separate from God, separate from that innate energy and light that Jesus spoke of so often and demonstrated. I try to not take it personally, and even have tried to point out to them how in-congruent it feels for them to state how much they like me and respect me and then deem my work misguided at the least and channeling darkness at the worst, but they just toss that off as untrue. I see that it is their closed minds and yes, hearts, that is keeping them from receiving all that I could be sharing with them, and I feel sad. As I know there are so many people in the world that live life this way, and it feels so small to me.

To be in the midst of these situations with others projecting their issues onto me, some people rejecting what I have to give or deeming it not enough, has certainly toughened me up in a way and helped me be more detached. It has also conversely helped me know my worth more. Some of the places I have stayed have been like sailing through the smoothest of waters and others have been like walking past walls of sand paper! I do trust though that each circumstance is leading me closer and closer to the deeper work that Jesus told me I was do when I was nine.

I thought I’d be doing it much sooner than this, and I’m sure I’ve been doing it somewhat throughout my life. However, there seems to have been a lot of preparation that was needed first and this journey has been that walk through the fire that was necessary.

I know that this part of the journey is almost over. I am grateful for all of it…and very much looking forward to landing in a soft spot of my own!

Keeping the Faith!

This planet is going through so much transformation right now, with all the darkness getting flushed to the surface within us and all around us. It would be so easy to just buy into all the fear and believe that all the darkness is the Truth or here to stay. It takes great strength to believe in the light, when all around us might appear dark, but that is the time that our strength and faith is needed the most.

Light is pouring into us and the planet, which can feel unsettling. I used to have very deep depressions, even contemplating suicide at times. It is amazing to me to look back and realize that I don’t go to that place anymore. I still have down days and I have had more stress, betrayal, abandonment, injuries, a tumor surgery, a car accident, some horrible work situations, 3 main moves, a long frustrating law suit, attacks, estrangement from my son (my best friend), …you name it, since Oct. 1999 when my Mom died, the last of my birth family, than in my life up until then. And I’ve presently been on the road for 11 months, now staying in my 25th place. And yes, I have days I feel afraid, days that tears come, like today, days of frustration….but I don’t travel to that dark place anymore because I have filled myself up with so much light.

I have learned that emotions just come and go, thoughts come and go, that I am always connected to source, that good always shines through, that there is always a “plan”, and that in the end, I always end up stronger than before. Sometimes I want to cry “Uncle”, and yet, after all I’ve been through, there remains a curiosity, as I wonder what is next? What solution is going to arise? And something always comes.

So, please, cry when you need to, scream if you have to, and when you are done, fall into your heart and feel that connection with God and your soul, and know all will be well, all is well…and let the light shine!

The movie “The Way”, pilgrimages and journeys!

I recently watched the movie “The Way” and loved it. I had read an article quite awhile ago interviewing Emilio Estevez, the writer, director and co-star in the movie, about the process and working with his Dad, Martin Sheen, the star of the movie. So I was already intrigued. I had also read a book by Shirley Maclaine about her journey on the El Camino de Santiago, and was inspired and fascinated by this journey. The movie focuses on Tom, played by Martin Sheen, as the stoic and traditional father, who finds out his lost son has been found dead, dying just as he had started this pilgrimage. Tom decides to journey the El Camino and spread his son’s ashes along the way. It is a rare emotional decision for him, and his impulsive decision brings him much more than he had envisioned when he started on the way. It is a movie of grief and loss, as well as discovery, friendship and transformation. It is beautiful in it’s unfolding as well as in the luscious scenery.

As I do with most movies, I looked at each character and inquired what I held in common with them and where we were different. Unlike the main character, I would not have been tight lipped like he was, as I am known for my open sharing, but I could relate to his anger, grief and unknowing as he wondered about his son’s whereabouts, felt the pain of their estrangement, and then his anger, grief and loss when his son was found dead. In truth, I am much more like his impetuous, leaping, restless son, Daniel; but you see, I, too, have lost a son, not to death, but to estrangement.Although, like Daniel, I am the one that has leaped into adventure throughout my life and recently on a now 11 month journey of faith.

I looked at the kind and talkative character, Joost, and saw my golden retriever self who assumes that everyone wants to talk to me, know me, be engaged. I looked at the angry, defensive, wounded character, Sara, and saw the me that I have been healing along this journey, as I attempt to make sense of the loss of past relationships and dreams. I looked at the character of Jack, the verbose writer, living out a life much smaller than he had dreamed of, and see how much I have limited myself for way too long.

In watching this movie I realized that I, too, have been on a pilgrimage, not spreading physical ashes of a cremated son, but certainly spreading metaphoric ashes of my past and the relationships in it, as I have revisited many of the towns and places where I have lived, traveled to, or hiked. It was that giving up hope and attachment to my past relationships that was the last step for me, letting go of those last ashes in the bottom of the bag, knowing that this is it, the end…and letting them go in the wind.

It is fitting that I am ending this journey in San Diego, CA. as this is where I spent so much time as a child and adult, vacationing with my family, and then later with my Mom and/or my son. And this is where I spread my Mother’s ashes in Nov. 1999, on my way back to Seattle, where I was living with my son, moving there in Oct. 1998 after leaving Colorado. And here I am finishing this journey in San Diego now, before heading home to Colorado, going full circle. Now, like Tom in the movie, I need to stand next to the ocean, reach down in my bag, and gather the last vestiges of my past relationships and life; gather my long held dreams of the future; and finally and firmly throw these ashes to the wind and the water, letting go and saying goodbye to what was, honoring it and making room for what will take it’s place.

I am grateful for the sweet memories I have of my life up until now. I am grateful for the experience of being a single Mom and managing to stay loving and attentive no matter what challenges I faced. I am grateful for the friends and support I’ve had along this pilgrimage. And now it is time for me to leave this funeral pyre and begin my new adventure, alone, yes, but now with room to let others into my heart, my restored and healed heart. Now it is time for me to go home and settle into my new launching pad for future adventures.

So I encourage you to watch “The Way” and enjoy your journey, wherever it takes you. Remember life is to be lived, not something you got stuck in, so live it with faith and enjoy it along the way.

Love, Katelon