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Empaths and Narcissists

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I really found value in this article.  I am an empath, have been one through most of my lifetimes and have often been snagged by narcissists. I’ve been working to learn to identify them better and  change my behavior that attracts and allows them to do what they do.

So after reading this article, I had a “talk” with my light team to better understand it.  I can see that when I try to “fix” someone, is when I really run into trouble, as that moves me out of my center and then allows the manipulations that a narcissist uses.  Or when I move deeply into feeling their pain, then end up apologizing for them treating me badly, as if it is all my fault.

I have often been a “healer” in most of my lifetimes and professionally in this one, along with my agreements to take on and process the pain of this planet and humanity.  I don’t want to stop this work of mine but am wanting to learn how to better take care of myself.

The light explained that if I just “step up to the plate”, in offering my healing work and my life as an empath, with no attachment to outcome, or allowing anyone to entice me to move “past the plate”, then that will help keep and establish my boundary, keep me in my center and lessen any manipulative behavior by others.  They also reminded me that another way I can get into trouble is when I am feeling a need for validation, acceptance, etc. and seek it from the other, rather than just seeking it within me or from Spirit.

I loved the imagery of just staying in my center as I “step up to the plate”, and either tuning into my heart or connecting upward with my team and Source.  That gives me something to hang on to in my memory to help keep me operating cleanly and keep me from falling into victim.

Here is the article:

http://in5d.com/empath-narcissist/

Hope you enjoy it and my notes are helpful for you!

 

 

My Wish for You, My Single Friend…

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Ok…this is better! I wanted to share this post as I related to it so much, not only for single people but ALL people. Learning to truly love and honor ourselves is perhaps the deepest lesson of being human, and I feel is important for all relationships.

I’m looking forward to the shifts coming to this planet that will have each of us owning and knowing our inherent beauty, worth, deservingness of love and respect. From this knowing, it will flow out to honoring all others and the planet and finally bring peace and cooperation across the world.

Midlife Moments

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I have a friend who is newly single. I watched as she navigated her break-up with her significant other. I supported her as she went through the initial stages of grief .. anger .. bargaining .. denial … depression … acceptance. I let her talk … and cry .. and vent … and held her in my heart as the fear … that fathomless fear …. of being alone crashed into her world. She is through the worst of the initial stuff and is settling into her single life. I, as a single woman and a writer, seem to her like a guide that can help her to step into being single and have a full life regardless of whether or not that space in her bed is ever filled again. My friend, I may seem like a guide that does it with grace, but know that everything you feel…

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My Passion!

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Photo by Katelon Jeffereys

I chose this photo as it is a Passion Flower.  I wanted to share about what I am passionate about.

I’m passionate about helping bring about a new world of light, love, cooperation, clean air/water/earth and airwaves. I’m passionate about having a light based financial system, debt forgiveness around the world, light based governments in TRUE service to this planet and humanity.  I’m passionate about us finally joining forces with light based ET’s and becoming great galactic citizens.  I’m passionate about every man, woman, child and creature on this planet being valued, cared for, nurtured, healthy, whole, safe and able to express all of their divine nature, gifts and talents.

As I’ve mentioned, things weren’t great for me growing up…maybe financially, but emotionally, health wise, mentally, etc. it was quite challenging.  And yet, that is what led me to my true work as a professional holistic and spiritual healer, knowing that I’m just the midwife, as healing happens THROUGH me and through the person whom I am working with, with Spirit guiding the way. It’s what led me to lead Spiritual ceremony, teach creative music and movement to children, lead public workshops as well as taking workshops to youth, government agencies, non-profits, businesses,  and corporations.

I was able to move myself from years of deep depression and suicidal thoughts to strength, inner calmness, and the courage to take on my now 149 week journey of living on faith and trust. And all the 16+ therapies I learned were ones that worked for me, so I learned them to share with others.

I know this is a challenging time as we transition from the darkness that has held this planet for so long, into a light based world.  There is much we are releasing as at the same time, we are being blasted with so much light and love to move us forward.

I am passionate about helping all of you in any way I can.  Doing my work is so much fun and brings me so much joy. I love digging into my vast tool bag and being guided in what would work best with each of you, to help you make this transition with more ease and grace.

Please check out my website http://www.empowerandbalance.com and check out what is offered there.

For those who are ready to play, I am offering a 20% off special for Sept. for those who follow my blog. Just let me know when you contact me.  There is so much I can offer via skype and by phone.

For those who choose the free stuff, there are pages of stress release/energy medicine techniques with instructions.

Let me know if I can help in any way.

Enjoy these times! We are so graced to live at this time on the planet and to be a part of this amazing transformation.  This morning, while standing in the shower, I could feel my entire body pulsing with energy, each cell vibrating with light as if the physical parameters of my body don’t exist anymore.  It is happening now friends, please allow and embrace it.

Much love to you all, katelon

Survive or Celebrate….another poem

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Those of you who have been reading my blog for awhile, know that I grew up remembering horrendous past lives of torture and heinous deaths, along with talking to spirits and knowing my destiny to come in this lifetime,  yet being told by doctors I was crazy and by my parents “face reality”. It took many, many years of counseling, various holistic therapies, working on myself and following my spiritual journey to heal that terror, fear and disconnect, and move into embracing who I am and the reality I believe in and work toward for myself and the world. This poem came from that journey.

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Survive or Celebrate

A scared child sits inside
a strong woman’s breast.
Remembrances of a lonely
childhood sorrow and fears.

Do loved ones always leave?

Letting the child carry on
struggling to survive
in a world where dreams
aren’t reality.

Love shares joy and pain
commitments are for now
not forever.
Fight, defend
or let go and celebrate.

A battlefield or
a dance,
the choice is yours.

© Katelon T. Jeffereys

How About Some Compassion?

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Before I move into my topic of today, “compassion”, I want to introduce you to the rose in the photo. While living in Seattle for numerous years, Lincoln Park became my haven. I am a country girl and big cities are challenging to me. I often walked in Lincoln park, up in the forested areas and down by the Puget Sound. There was a path I loved to take, starting at the north end, down an alley of sorts, behind a row of houses on the water. I love beauty, flowers and smells, so I had a “smell” routine, stopping along the path to sniff my favorites as I walked toward the path along the sound. This rose was my favorite. Notice its fragile beauty. Can you feel the softness of the petals, almost cool to touch? Can you see the delicate orange and pink color? If you lean in, you can smell the enticing citrus scent…so delicious you can almost taste it. That is compassion. To behold the beauty, gently holding another, taking in the vision, fragility, and yes, even the scent. In that action, you behold the divinity in another. No matter what they’ve done, or said, you see beyond that, just as we risk the thorns of a rose so that we can be touched by the beauty. I’d like you to remember that rose and call upon its beauty, fragility, scent and feel, so that when you need to call upon compassion, you have a tool to bring you into that place.

If you’ve been following my blog, you know that my lifetimes long path has been to fight the dark, since it’s very inception, and bring forth the light. More recently, I’ve deepened my work within the sessions John and I are doing, leading us to work more directly with the Chimera, dark forces who have ruled this planet for 25,000 years, and the cabal, humans playing out these dark agendas. You can read more details on John’s blog http://www.freedom4humanity.wordpress.com. The Chimera have had in place a quarantine around the planet, to keep out the light and prevent it from dispelling the dark and transforming this planet, a veil in place within humanity to keep them from remembering their divinity, and much more dark technologies on the planet and placed within humanity to keep us all enslaved, downtrodden and under their control.

Dark interference and implants were placed in humans, and dark beliefs spread into religions, institutions, and throughout society to keep humans living a very limited life. Certainly there have been breakthroughs from time to time, but the violence here, the awful ways we can treat each other, the atmosphere of fear that is spread through the dark based media and various dark run black ops, keeps humans from knowing the fullness of their power, their hearts, and their divinity. I’m bringing all this up because I want you to know that you are not fully responsible for all those things you think you did poorly, the times you were less than upright in your behavior, etc. I’m not excusing any of us from being responsible, or accountable, as I strive to do that daily. What I am saying is that there ARE reasons beyond your control that have led much of who you have been, how you have been acting or reacting. Add into that the economic slavery placed upon humanity, the toxins spewed into the air physically and electrically, and it is amazing there is as much support, forgiveness, and kindness in humanity at this time. That speaks volumes for the big heartedness of this race called humans. So……have some compassion for yourself first of all, and then for the others around you. Look with softened eyes, a tender heart, reach out with a gentle hand, take a deep breath and feel compassion for all you’ve done, all you’ve been, what others have gone through.

Now, let’s move further out.

The Chimera was a cloned race, created by Ankara, a creator God on a dark path. They were created to occupy and conquer. They were created without light bodies. So these guys didn’t have a chance at all. Ankara surrendered to the light, in the late 90’s and then asked all his cloned races to surrender. The Chimera refused and the planet continued to be held within the grasp of the cabal and the dark technologies. So, they had a choice, and chose to continue their path of darkness. Through the work John and I have been doing though, I learned that at the core of their DNA, they were programmed for darkness. They also had energetic contracts to follow this path. That’s a lot to fight against. And yet, on Oct. 15th, when John and I approached the head of the Chimera and offered him the option of transitioning to the light, with the stipulation that he negotiate a surrender of the entire Chimera forces and shut down all the dark technologies, he took us up on the offer. At the time, he thought he could trick us. But once it was done, he was now held within the light. John assisted him in gaining a light body, and then he went on to obtain the full surrender of the Chimera, and is now working for the light to finish clearing all darkness and bringing the planet and humanity to the light. Ultimately he has chosen to become human, and other Chimera members have made that choice, too. Some of the Chimera chose to return to their own planets. Of those beings who choose to become human, I say WELCOME. And I offer them compassion for the dark roles they were led to play. I’m asking you to have compassion for them as well.

The Cabal and their minions are another matter. These people are human, with light bodies, created from Source and thus light. Although they were subject to the same dark interference and implants we all had, they also made conscious choices to play their dark roles of destruction, greed, control, and deceit, and have wreaked havoc on the health, well-being, structure and finances of humanity and the planet. They have stopped at nothing to destroy any semblance of peace, prosperity, success or fulfillment of the masses. The truth will soon be coming out about all that they have done, and left to our 3D ways, we could cry for arrests, trials, and persecution. I am calling instead for compassion.

With the surrender of the Chimera and the dismantling of all their technologies, the Cabal are left powerless. Through the mirror containment set up around them by John and I, and other work done by other light-workers and “white hats” in high places, they can no longer succeed. So they are sidelined, no matter how much they may snarl and spit out threats. The gravy train stops now. They, too, have the choice now to transition to the light, taking their skill sets and using them for the light, or at the time of the ascension of this planet, they will be dissolved into Source again.

Humanity is now at a choice point. Do we go backwards and hold our fists in the air shouting for justice, or do we protect ourselves and our planet, yes, but show compassion, and allow these sidelined dark path humans to choose the light? Are we strong enough to shower them with love and forgiveness, showing them that we are stronger than darkness? I feel that the more humanity owns it’s big heartedness, steps into its power, and shines out compassion, the sooner the remaining inertia and illusion of power that the cabal still seems to hold, will just dissolve.

So remember the rose…its velvety texture, its orange and pink beauty, its fragility, the sweet citrus scent, open your heart, step into your power and beam out compassion….for yourself, for others, for the Chimera, for the planet, and for those humans who have played such a dark role. Let’s be the Saviors of this planet.

What Do You Desire?

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I recently read the book “Appetites” by Caroline Knapp. This book is a powerful and honest look at her years living with anorexia, and also dives much deeper into what it is like to be a woman: the roles we are handed, the conflicts with our Mothers and the female role, how society treats and judges women, how we judge ourselves, and how that affects our ability or inability to even acknowledge our appetites/desires, let alone get them met.

I receive numerous emails every day about petitions to sign for political, environmental or social justice causes, so am reminded regularly about how poorly women are treated all over the world: child brides, honor killings, rape, incest, poverty, domestic violence, the sex trade and more. Even in the US there are more women and children killed or abused every day than died in the Vietnam war. Women still earn less than men for the same jobs. Powerful women, political women, still often elicit nasty judgements against themselves for behavior admired in men. The laws in place and proposed to govern a woman’s health and reproductive rights are appalling, with politicians still blaming women for their rapes, and blaming their sexuality as being an issue…the same men who want to have sex with these women?! Feminism may have made some changes in our culture but not many.

Looking at this in a larger more metaphysical way, you can see it in the repression of the Goddess and how healers and medicine women were killed as witches. The female has been vilified in many of the world’s religions. Patriarchy took over and we’ve had wars ever since.

These are some of the things I have worked to change in my private holistic/spiritual healing practice and my social justice activism. But I also see it as a bigger picture because I believe with the ruling elite’s agenda and the cabal basically running this world for so long, ALL people have been kept from truly becoming aware of their deep desires as well as being able to fulfill them. How could any of us do that without balanced, healthy and loved female and male aspects of ourselves?

I loved reading the book in light of the changes now taking place on the planet, as we work to finally and completely oust the dark’s rule, reclaim our “original blessing” and existence as a divine co-creator with Spirit. And I appreciated the private places it led me to as I examined the issues I grew up with about self identity and lack of self acceptance, handed to me by my wounded Mother and Father, and reinforced by a wounded society.

I grew up thin, so was always able to eat what I chose as far as weight goes, but did grow up with various allergies and chronic asthma. So as I moved into my attempt to heal myself, many various diets were explored and battles were waged against foods I craved and yet knew weren’t good for me. My Mother was a wonderful cook and baker, and not affectionate, so baked goods replaced my needed hugs. I’m a baker as well, so this sugar war has been waged over and over throughout the years.

I had one brief bout of anorexia the summer and fall before graduating from college. I had been teaching for a year at my son’s wonderful alternative pre-school but was required to quit that job and teach in a “real school” as a student teacher, in order to receive my degree in education. The upcoming stress of that, and the experience of working within the restrictions of that public school, the knowledge that I was graduating with a degree I didn’t know what to do with and the then requirement to fully support my son and I alone, led me to put weight on for the first time in my life. I had no idea how to respond to that as it seemed to have nothing to do with how much or little I ate, so I just mostly quit eating. By the time I graduated that semester I had given myself an ulcer.

Although I didn’t grow up fat, I was well acquainted with the teasing and judging, at the hand of school mates, for being thin, having freckles, wearing glasses, having asthma and being smart. So the self judging part of childhood seemed to rule my life. I also was quite aware of how others were treated, as my early activism was born. My family was quite critical and that led me to struggle with identifying what I truly desired and left me feeling guilty for wanting anything at all. Both my parents weren’t able to pursue their dreams and my Father didn’t even want to be married to my Mother but remained so under his Father’s rule. So the model of healthy awareness of desires, what would be fulfilling and the acceptance and healthy acquisition of those, was absent in my family. and life.

I am grateful to have tools to use to address all of this now as well as my understanding of how this fits with the bigger picture transformation taking place on the planet. We are all in the midst of clearing out the emotional baggage and limitations that have plagued us for so long. As we move up to higher dimensions and toward ascension only loving, light selves can make that transition. Anything else is too dense. So I welcomed this opportunity that this book afforded me and the healing it led me to do.

Imagine a world where we grow up loving ourselves, knowing our self to be lovable, fully attuned to our body, our sexuality, our desires and the ability and support to pursue the fulfillment of those in a healthy way. Imagine a world where women are honored and respected, and the female aspect within all of us is celebrated and nurtured. I’m excited to live in THAT world! And it starts within us.

What are your deepest desires?

What are you hungry for and perhaps weren’t allowed to have?

What would fill and nurture that most vulnerable part of yourself?

These are great questions to ask yourself.

Please join the conversation and share below, too!

Thanks for reading, thanks for being a part of this world and it’s transformation, thanks for being YOU, wondrous YOU!!!!

Your value is the product of your thoughts…

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In our society, reclaiming our self value can be a long journey. Some cultures and families fully support their children and each other in a way that bolsters self esteem, self worth, self love and self value but many don’t at all.

With how our world has been run by the dark elite for so long, institutions, governments, and religions, were designed to keep people down, feeling devalued and lacking so they could be controlled. So this has been pervasive in our world.

I grew up with two critical parents, school mates that rejected me and devalued me, and that became my norm. In my lifelong quest to heal asthma, I realized how much of the time I held my breath so as not to wheeze, and tried to be as small as possible, take up as little room as I could, so as not to attract any more negative attention. When I did attempt to shine my light it was deemed too bright, so I kept that hidden as well.

My healing process has taken a long time and I’m so grateful for the various healers who helped me and the many techniques I learned to assist myself. This journey to self love and self valuing isn’t an easy quest, but oh so worth it.

The truth of who we are is divine co-creators with Spirit/source. Anything less than that is a lie. We were meant to shine bright and shine BIG! Love is who we are and to keep that covered not only hurts the world but it also hurts ourselves.

The time of the planet is one where we are all being called to reclaim this divinity, this light, this love and fill ourselves up, letting it seep out to the world. Imagine a world with all of us shining bright! Then together we can create a planet of peace, abundance, joy, wholeness.

You are a very valuable part of this creation. I honor you. Shine on dear one, shine on!!!!!

Otrazhenie

From http://www.santabanta.com

Have a wonderful week 🙂 

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The Constant Companions via Aisha North: The Manuscript of Survival – Part 416 « Golden Age of Gaia

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The Constant Companions via Aisha North: The Manuscript of Survival – Part 416 « Golden Age of Gaia.

via The Constant Companions via Aisha North: The Manuscript of Survival – Part 416 « Golden Age of Gaia.

I sometimes just skim this channel’s posts but something led me to read the entire post today and I’m glad that I did, as it really spoke to me.

Since I had remembered past lives since age 3, been walking in and out of other dimensions and interacting with various spiritual beings, I faced much criticism and doctors even tried to diagnose me as mentally ill. My parents kept telling me to “face reality” and I just couldn’t understand why anyone would want to limit themselves so much when what I saw was so much more vast and beautiful.

At age 8, I started exploring other religions, looking for answers. I made my way through the local Christian churches, the Catholic church, the Quaker church in another town, various eastern religions and gurus, a brief exploration of the Muslim religions, the Native American medicine wheel and many other spiritual/metaphysical/new age/new thought churches and groups.

I was looking for something to explain my memories and to create a sense of belonging. Growing up with so much rejection and judgement, I had learned to hide my light, attempting to fit in, but never too successfully. I had weak lungs since birth as my Mom’s doctor took me a month early as a c-section baby so he could go on vacation. So this stuffing my light only served to exacerbate the lung challenges and also led to deep, long depressions and suicidal thoughts, and all of that led to more isolation and rejection.

I felt like this light that I knew myself to be was too bright, too big, and so I just held it in. Then I went searching for a way to fill up that space and become whole again. And many of the answers I sought were a search for a way to heal my physical and emotional body. That led me ultimately back to my spiritual self.

I had also held in my light not just because my family and classmates were judging me for my experiences and my differences but because of a fear that once again in this life I would be harmed for shining my light, like my past life memories had shown me at such a young age.

I’m grateful for my journey through all these various paths, and am just as grateful for finally returning to my truth, that my light is ME, and it is not only ok to shine my light, it is imperative for my health and well being and that of the world.

I know this story might not be “YOUR” story but I bet that some of it is, so let’s hold hands and together step into the greater US, and together we can step up into the higher dimensions and live the life of our dreams!

Shine on brothers and sisters, shine bright, shine BIG!!!!!

Staying True In The Midst Of Other’s Perceptions!

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Throughout this almost year long journey I have been mostly staying in other people’s homes. Stepping into someone else’s home involves stepping into different house rules, perceptions, beliefs, needs, expectations and many of these are not overtly expressed. Some of the places I have stayed I have arranged through bartering my healing therapies, dog walking, cleaning, cooking, and organizing. among other skills. I’m not the best negotiator, as my nature is giving and generous, but my communication is clear, so I have done what I could to clearly and cleanly negotiate an arrangement that honored me as well as the other person. What I often found though, is that although I often give much more than is agreed upon, the other person would often change the agreement mid-stream, demanding more or even turning it around to make it appear that I hadn’t given enough?! This was always a shocking experience to me as I thought all had been clear in the beginning and as I stated, I always made sure I gave more than I had agreed upon.

I have always been a flexible, adaptable person, pretty easy going, and focused on being aware of others’ needs so as to keep things going smoothly. This journey though has led me into homes of hosts with almost OCD demands and house rules that even the most astute and dedicated house guest could not begin to adhere to or even decipher; homes of hosts living in their own words “just this side of disgusting” as far as cleanliness; homes of hosts that were controlling, raging alcoholics, noisy, quiet, outgoing, reclusive, vegetarians, meat eaters, and everything in between. Navigating all of these varied situations in addition to the different climates and cities to smaller towns has been quite challenging and stressful. And yet, I’m sure there has been a reason for this journey.

I know without a doubt that I have brought healing to so many people and areas because my recipients have acknowledged this, and I know that it has brought me healing and helped me stand in my power more and taught me to set better boundaries. Along with all this learning though, questions still remain.

I am presently staying with a warm, generous couple who love God, love Jesus, believe strongly in their beliefs and state that they don’t judge. And yet…..when I offer to do the healing work I have done since childhood, the work I was led to through my spiritual experiences with Jesus, my work is deemed unacceptable. When I have questioned why it was deemed acceptable that Jesus could do healing work and yet my work is deemed questionable, perhaps even coming from the dark, it is explained that ONLY Jesus could do healing work?! And yet, these people believe in prayer and manifestations they have received through this prayer, which is invoking God and Jesus. But healing work that is invoking Jesus and God’s energy that flows through all of us, is deemed darkness.

I feel so sad when I run into this belief system, as in my understanding, this very belief keeps people feeling separate from God, separate from that innate energy and light that Jesus spoke of so often and demonstrated. I try to not take it personally, and even have tried to point out to them how in-congruent it feels for them to state how much they like me and respect me and then deem my work misguided at the least and channeling darkness at the worst, but they just toss that off as untrue. I see that it is their closed minds and yes, hearts, that is keeping them from receiving all that I could be sharing with them, and I feel sad. As I know there are so many people in the world that live life this way, and it feels so small to me.

To be in the midst of these situations with others projecting their issues onto me, some people rejecting what I have to give or deeming it not enough, has certainly toughened me up in a way and helped me be more detached. It has also conversely helped me know my worth more. Some of the places I have stayed have been like sailing through the smoothest of waters and others have been like walking past walls of sand paper! I do trust though that each circumstance is leading me closer and closer to the deeper work that Jesus told me I was do when I was nine.

I thought I’d be doing it much sooner than this, and I’m sure I’ve been doing it somewhat throughout my life. However, there seems to have been a lot of preparation that was needed first and this journey has been that walk through the fire that was necessary.

I know that this part of the journey is almost over. I am grateful for all of it…and very much looking forward to landing in a soft spot of my own!

Letting Go, Releasing…isn’t always easy!

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This is a picture taken of the Green River, in Flaming Geyser park, near Black Diamond, WA. I love the angel wings made by the rocks. It is a good image to remember when you are in the process of letting go of a relationship, habit, belief, situation that you need to let go of and are struggling to let go.

Whether it is because I am a Leo astrologically, and loyal because of that; or part of my occasionally dysfunctional people pleasing ways; or just because I’m human, and we humans seem to cling to the past and to people and things we need to let go of, instead of trusting and moving forward to something better, I often will hold on to old relationships when they are toxic, and have long passed their expiration dates. It is especially hard for me when it is someone I am very close to, had some wonderful times with and still love. But as I progress further on my spiritual path, I’m learning that the more I honor myself, the more I learn to love and respect myself, there is no room in my world anymore for people that don’t treat me well, or don’t want me in their lives.

Often I had friends who consistently treated me badly, and I’d make excuses for them, attempt to stick up for myself…sometimes poorly and unskillfully, sometimes with grace, and still keep them in my life, accepting their excuses and the few good things they threw my way at times. I see now how this set me up to attract other similar relationships.

I’ve also seen how my tendency to assume full responsibility for everything in my life, led me to accept responsibility for what wasn’t even mine. As a child, I often got punished for things I was accused of in the neighborhood, things I hadn’t done and my Father would believe others over me. So I grew up believing that no matter what I did, it wasn’t good enough, nor was there any way to protect myself, as my parents surely weren’t standing up for me. This led to quite low self esteem. So others could treat me badly and I’d just go back for more, blaming myself for their behavior.

I’ve worked for years to heal this and regain my self esteem. This almost 10 month journey of mine has been providing the finishing touches on this. Staying with so many different people over the months, setting up agreements before moving in and occasionally having the hosts drop those agreements then blame me, and ask me to leave, when I was already doing more than agreed upon, giving more than agreed upon, has been a great training ground to finally end this unhealthy habit of mine and finally and fully claim self love.

I have a particularly close relationship I have grieved over for years, spent a bunch of money on contacting various healers and counselors to help me heal, doing rituals and my own healing and clearing work, going back and forth between acceptance and letting go and then, feeling like if I only did this or that, it would be a good relationship again and I finally got it! And got it BIG, that relationships take two people, that I’ve done all I can do, and to continue to play my dysfunctional game only keeps me from peace and from fulfilling my spiritual purpose. It also keeps me unavailable for other possible loving relationships that will be mutually supportive and loving.

I am learning that you tell yourself or someone else to let go, but until a certain point is reached, it isn’t possible to fully release. I do believe that meditations, rituals, various techniques are helpful, and I have several on my website http://www.empowerandbalance.com  But I believe it is just a point that you finally reach with grace, that allows you to trust enough, love yourself enough, to just let go. And when that moment arrives, the feeling is so clean, clear and sweet as there is now room for true love and peace to flood in and fill you up.

Know that there is much support all around and within you for assisting you in this release process. And after you let go, you will have room to bring into your life and heart what you truly desire, relationships and situations that truly honor and uplift you.

Love, katelon