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Opening Our Perception AND Getting Ready For The Shift!

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I walk in the neighborhood where I’m staying, daily.  I love connecting with the various plants and flowers.  I am used to seeing these Bird of Paradise flowers.  There are bushes of these in the backyard where I stay, and all over the neighborhood. I grew up seeing these flowers.  This is how they look…perhaps a little bigger or smaller, but yep, this is a common sight.

So imagine my surprise when I saw this double one with a new flower growing out of the same stalk, but in the opposite direction:

This must be a fluke I thought, some kind of anomaly in this particular bush…as of course, everyone knows that Bird of Paradise flowers only come one flower to a stalk.

So I walked on thinking of this strange aberration I had seen, when…wait…there is another one?!

Throughout my walk that day I noticed more and more of them on other bushes.  The same bushes I had walked by many, many times before. And yet, I’d never seen double Bird of Paradise flowers before…or had I?  They’d obviously been there before but until I actually SAW a double one, I didn’t believe in them, so didn’t see any others.

If you’ve read my blog before, you know that John Ross and I do daily sessions together to assist in bringing forth the shift into the light and shut down the dark Secret Government’s rule of this planet. So the next day after my new discovery, I used this experience and information to assist the team in charge of initiating this shift into the light.  We work at the level of energy, conducting our “sessions” just like a normal meeting, but this meeting happens on an energetic level. Also, we start our “meetings” by setting up sacred circles, calling in many light beings, along with the teams, and make sure the space is protected, governed by Cosmic and Universal Law and with our egos and conscious minds on the back burner.

I explained to the team this experience I had had, and explained the phenomena that “Believing is seeing”, versus the commonly communicated “Seeing is believing”.  When I taught corporate workshops, I referenced a study that Robert Ornstein, a biologist, ex-professor, researcher and author, wrote about in one of the many books of his that I read.  It was a study carried out with college students. The researcher showed college students a deck of cards, asking them to identify how many black hearts were seen and how many red clubs. (I can’t remember the exact card category used but you get the picture).  What was found is that most of the students stated that of course there were zero black hearts and red clubs. Then, the researcher announced that they had created this deck of cards and made some with black hearts and red clubs.  Once this information was given, and accepted, the students were then able to see the black hearts and red clubs and relay the number of each that had been viewed.  Their brain’s neuronal structure had limited their vision in the first pass of looking at the cards. It wasn’t until new information was given, that their eyes could see the actual changes that had been made.

So after explaining all this to the team, in order to assist them in the job they have to do, I led them through an NLP exercise and visualization to open their perceptions.

Then, the next day, I walked by the same bushes as before and saw something even more shocking.

What???  These flowers were not only two blossoms on one stalk, but instead of going in the opposite direction, they were at 90 degree angles to each other?!!!  And then….something beyond that:

Two flowers going in the same direction, one above the other, coming off one stalk?!!!!

I had to expand, and expand and expand my perception to allow for more and more variances.  It was quite surprising to me that not only had I walked by these same bushes over and over and not seen the 2 blossoms/1 stalk variation, but that even after expanding my perception to allow that, I had then gone on to miss more variations of the 2 blossoms/1 stalk phenomena.

We all filter what we see, think and feel through our past experiences and what we’ve been led to believe. And the reason I’m bringing these experiences up is that the world is getting ready to move into a VERY BIG SHIFT!!!!  On March 2, 2017, the shift was complete, at the level of energy. It is making its way into the physical and with it, much of what we’ve been led to believe will be COMPLETELY upended.  Lies will be exposed from all areas…religion, science, education, sexuality, health, government, our place in the universe, our planet, history, finances, on and on, POW!  I believe this will bring tremendous healing in all areas, but in order to have this experience be as peaceful and comfortable as possible, we’ll need to open our perception, we’ll need to open our minds and hearts to hear the real truth,  and feel our connection with Source and each other. I also believe we will have much support with all of this, and we can assist this support by remembering….BELIEVING is Seeing….so I suggest you practice knowing that there is truth beyond what you presently believe, there are experiences beyond what you presently experience.

So stay open, take a deep breath and get ready to be wowed!!!

 

Much love to all of you! And thank you so much for the 300+ readers who deem my blog worthy of following and reading.  I appreciate your dedication, time and interest. And if you like this blog, please share it with others.  If you have questions, you can find my contact info on the About page.

Love, katelon

 

And….I’m back……..

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I want to apologize to my friends for getting lost awhile in the 3D circus. I know in my heart, and it is my conscious work, and has been my conscious work all my lifetimes, to assist in bringing forth the light, bringing freedom to all, and I truly believe that not only will this be our reality but IS our reality.
 
I knew that the dark and old had to crumble to make room for the truth and light to come forth, but as a nurturer, and healer, I felt the world had been through enough and wanted to fast forward to the good stuff. So when this election cycle shifted from the hope, unity and light of Bernie Sanders and devolved into the media circus of ignoring Sanders’ campaign and focused instead on daily data dumps against Clinton and fear and hate mongering as the shouted charge on the other side, I got drug into the morass.
 
I will still remain an activist, along with my spiritual work, however, I realized today, with the help of a great you tube a friend shared, that I need to get back to my focus of not only working toward, but announcing that the light IS being born, a new world IS happening, we ARE rising up in consciousness and awareness now, we ARE saying yes to building bridges, inclusiveness, supporting each and everyone with respect, honor and love, taking care of each other rather than greed, power over others and self interest only.
 
This is where we are headed, underneath everything crumbling that looks otherwise. So please take heart in the awakening that is happening now, feel your emotions and release them to the light, let Mother earth nurture and care for you, and you for her and each other.
 
Thank you for your ongoing support, encouragement, understanding and letting me serve you in this way.
 
Much love, katelon
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And in case you want to check out the youtube, here is the link:

https://youtu.be/sQtnWLluRAQ

My Wish for You, My Single Friend…

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Ok…this is better! I wanted to share this post as I related to it so much, not only for single people but ALL people. Learning to truly love and honor ourselves is perhaps the deepest lesson of being human, and I feel is important for all relationships.

I’m looking forward to the shifts coming to this planet that will have each of us owning and knowing our inherent beauty, worth, deservingness of love and respect. From this knowing, it will flow out to honoring all others and the planet and finally bring peace and cooperation across the world.

Midlife Moments

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I have a friend who is newly single. I watched as she navigated her break-up with her significant other. I supported her as she went through the initial stages of grief .. anger .. bargaining .. denial … depression … acceptance. I let her talk … and cry .. and vent … and held her in my heart as the fear … that fathomless fear …. of being alone crashed into her world. She is through the worst of the initial stuff and is settling into her single life. I, as a single woman and a writer, seem to her like a guide that can help her to step into being single and have a full life regardless of whether or not that space in her bed is ever filled again. My friend, I may seem like a guide that does it with grace, but know that everything you feel…

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Taking Our Power Back!

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What do M and M’s have to do with taking our power back?  Be patient….I will get to that in a while 🙂  They refer to a ritual I created.  But first…some information;

I have read some metaphysical authors talk about the belief that if each individual just faced and healed their own darkness, the world would heal and we could just then move forward in a light based world.  I used to believe that, too, but now, although I believe that is part of the equation, I don’t believe it is the only part.  Through the work I’ve been doing with John,  http://www.freedom4humanity.wordpress.com I’ve learned more about the dark technologies that have been directed at and placed in humanity to keep us in darkness.  I’ve learned more about the veil that was designed to keep us separate from Source and our divinity,  placed over us at the beginning of each life experience, more effective and present with some people than others.  (I remembered past lives since age 2). And what the dark forces and dark humans couldn’t control via these, they made sure to control via false beliefs imbedded in religions, toxins placed in our water, air, food and soil.  I’m not talking about victim consciousness here either, as it is a reality that these people, beings and technologies exist.  So no matter how much inner healing we manage to achieve, these technologies have still existed, and when you throw in dark world governments, dark based economic and financial systems, social structures meant to keep humans enslaved and separate from each other and their divine selves, it makes it hard to shift just our inner reality and make a huge difference.

But…..but……we do have power. We DO have power.  And it is helpful to do our inner work.  I recently read an article by David Hawkins I believe it was…not sure…and it talked about how for each person vibrating at a higher vibration of love, compassion….it helped raise up others, many others, that were stuck in fear or anger.  Just notice the feeling of walking into a room after there has been an argument in it, or watching the news, and feel the density of the energy vs. walking into a calm, peaceful garden, or a home filled with love.    So how you feel about yourself and others DOES make a difference.  As each of us does our inner work to face and release old limiting beliefs, habits and perceptions, we help shift the environment around us, which helps raise the consciousness of the planet.  The more the consciousness of the planet is shifted, the harder it is for the dark to remain in control.

I feel that the various uprisings around the world, the protests, the occupy movement, those marching in Ferguson demanding a revision of lopsided governing that targets people of color, forces us as individuals and those governing to begin to question their own darkness and begin that important and powerful process of facing and releasing the perceptions that keep us all in fear and reaction.

At the same time though, through these daily sessions I am doing with John, I am seeing first hand how important it has been to work to shut down these dark forces, and dark humans, to assist in moving them to surrender.  This surrender has happened and we are just waiting now for the public announcement to acknowledge this to the world.  Once that happens, the technologies will finish being shut down around the planet and within humans, the clean up can happen to restore our planet to health and wholeness and we will shift onto a timeline of Oneness, and be reunited with our divine selves.  So all the inner work will have served to assist us in getting to this point and in living in Oneness once this shift happens.  Each time someone wakes up, takes back their power, the dark loses and is informed of the loss of their control.

John and I have targeted for this transition to happen with peaceful surrender and not arrests and trials, as that supports a timeline of Oneness and love, and those we are working with in these sessions have been targeting the same.  Even after the shift though, I believe that it will still be important and valid to learn to take back our power.  We will be living in a new world, reconnected to our ability to create and manifest, so we will be adjusting to this new way of being in a new world.

So now….for some ideas on taking back our power:

In 2013, I was on one of my favorite hikes, the West Fork in Sedona, AZ.  The trail winds back and forth across a river bed, in between lovely striated red and black cliffs.  As I began my walk, I was led to start stating, out loud, things I was choosing to release and forgive within me….being a victim….and that led me to release all the ways humanity had been victims…and that led me to release and forgive all the perpetrators ….being angry….leading to releasing all the anger in the world…leading to releasing all the situations and controls in the world that led to that anger….on and on I named things…some in broad general terms, others in specific incidents, individuals and habits.  I did this all the way in until I had finished that part of the journey.  I stopped and rested, taking time to soak in the beauty of my surroundings and all that had been released.  On the way back, I felt this tug on my shirt, feeling a strong energy and guidance, and so I started taking back my power from that person I had felt victimized by, then taking back power for all those who had felt victimized, then taking back power for all those who had gotten stuck in being abusers….on and on it went through all the list I had been releasing for on the way in, all the way to my return to the trail head.

In 2012, I was led to do a ritual to take back my power.  I wanted it to be something fun. and I wanted to use something that I could eat, so I could get a tangible feeling of taking my power back into me, to assimilate, to be nourished by, to reabsorb back into my system.  So I created the M and M ritual.

I’ve been using stevia for many months now, so could not consume an M and M now, but back then, it worked.  You could use anything…almonds, strawberries, jello shots if that is your thing, anything that brings you comfort and pleasure.  I love creating sacred circles, so I placed a mug, that to me symbolized power, into the center of a circle.  All around the circle I placed markers for each person, situation and event that I was going to take back my power from, some with physical objects that represented them, others with just the name written on a piece of paper.

I called in the four directions and all the spiritual beings that I call in for my sacred circle.  Then I sat there, and taking an M and M in my hand, I spoke of the person, situation, event, feeling, ailment, etc. and how I had given my power away to them, placing an M and M next to their marker. I did this for everything around the circle. Then, I went around again and ceremoniously took each M and M from each marker, announcing that I was now taking back my power, and placed each M and M, in the mug. I took my time to acknowledge the act of taking back my power from each of these people, ailments, circumstances.  Then, finally, I ate the M and M’s, one by one, again, taking the time to acknowledge, that I was now returning the power to me from giving it away to ……fill in the blank.  I chose to use M and M peanuts, as I wanted to acknowledge how nuts it is to give away our power. It may look sweet in the moment and be dressed in alluring colors..but at the core, it is nuts!!!

My career has been based on helping people take back their power, clearing away the dross that hides that bright diamond of YOU inside, using 16+ therapies to create individualized sessions for assistance.  Once this dark surrender is announced, we will be able to make progress in our healing much more quickly, with no more roadblocks to our success.  If I can help you in any way, please let me know.

My website http://www.empowerandbalance.com has several meditations, stress release and energy medicine techniques there for free or donation, to assist you, and lists my therapies and other offerings as well.

We are almost to the end of this dark time friends, please join me in the light!!

 

love, katelon

How About Some Compassion?

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Before I move into my topic of today, “compassion”, I want to introduce you to the rose in the photo. While living in Seattle for numerous years, Lincoln Park became my haven. I am a country girl and big cities are challenging to me. I often walked in Lincoln park, up in the forested areas and down by the Puget Sound. There was a path I loved to take, starting at the north end, down an alley of sorts, behind a row of houses on the water. I love beauty, flowers and smells, so I had a “smell” routine, stopping along the path to sniff my favorites as I walked toward the path along the sound. This rose was my favorite. Notice its fragile beauty. Can you feel the softness of the petals, almost cool to touch? Can you see the delicate orange and pink color? If you lean in, you can smell the enticing citrus scent…so delicious you can almost taste it. That is compassion. To behold the beauty, gently holding another, taking in the vision, fragility, and yes, even the scent. In that action, you behold the divinity in another. No matter what they’ve done, or said, you see beyond that, just as we risk the thorns of a rose so that we can be touched by the beauty. I’d like you to remember that rose and call upon its beauty, fragility, scent and feel, so that when you need to call upon compassion, you have a tool to bring you into that place.

If you’ve been following my blog, you know that my lifetimes long path has been to fight the dark, since it’s very inception, and bring forth the light. More recently, I’ve deepened my work within the sessions John and I are doing, leading us to work more directly with the Chimera, dark forces who have ruled this planet for 25,000 years, and the cabal, humans playing out these dark agendas. You can read more details on John’s blog http://www.freedom4humanity.wordpress.com. The Chimera have had in place a quarantine around the planet, to keep out the light and prevent it from dispelling the dark and transforming this planet, a veil in place within humanity to keep them from remembering their divinity, and much more dark technologies on the planet and placed within humanity to keep us all enslaved, downtrodden and under their control.

Dark interference and implants were placed in humans, and dark beliefs spread into religions, institutions, and throughout society to keep humans living a very limited life. Certainly there have been breakthroughs from time to time, but the violence here, the awful ways we can treat each other, the atmosphere of fear that is spread through the dark based media and various dark run black ops, keeps humans from knowing the fullness of their power, their hearts, and their divinity. I’m bringing all this up because I want you to know that you are not fully responsible for all those things you think you did poorly, the times you were less than upright in your behavior, etc. I’m not excusing any of us from being responsible, or accountable, as I strive to do that daily. What I am saying is that there ARE reasons beyond your control that have led much of who you have been, how you have been acting or reacting. Add into that the economic slavery placed upon humanity, the toxins spewed into the air physically and electrically, and it is amazing there is as much support, forgiveness, and kindness in humanity at this time. That speaks volumes for the big heartedness of this race called humans. So……have some compassion for yourself first of all, and then for the others around you. Look with softened eyes, a tender heart, reach out with a gentle hand, take a deep breath and feel compassion for all you’ve done, all you’ve been, what others have gone through.

Now, let’s move further out.

The Chimera was a cloned race, created by Ankara, a creator God on a dark path. They were created to occupy and conquer. They were created without light bodies. So these guys didn’t have a chance at all. Ankara surrendered to the light, in the late 90’s and then asked all his cloned races to surrender. The Chimera refused and the planet continued to be held within the grasp of the cabal and the dark technologies. So, they had a choice, and chose to continue their path of darkness. Through the work John and I have been doing though, I learned that at the core of their DNA, they were programmed for darkness. They also had energetic contracts to follow this path. That’s a lot to fight against. And yet, on Oct. 15th, when John and I approached the head of the Chimera and offered him the option of transitioning to the light, with the stipulation that he negotiate a surrender of the entire Chimera forces and shut down all the dark technologies, he took us up on the offer. At the time, he thought he could trick us. But once it was done, he was now held within the light. John assisted him in gaining a light body, and then he went on to obtain the full surrender of the Chimera, and is now working for the light to finish clearing all darkness and bringing the planet and humanity to the light. Ultimately he has chosen to become human, and other Chimera members have made that choice, too. Some of the Chimera chose to return to their own planets. Of those beings who choose to become human, I say WELCOME. And I offer them compassion for the dark roles they were led to play. I’m asking you to have compassion for them as well.

The Cabal and their minions are another matter. These people are human, with light bodies, created from Source and thus light. Although they were subject to the same dark interference and implants we all had, they also made conscious choices to play their dark roles of destruction, greed, control, and deceit, and have wreaked havoc on the health, well-being, structure and finances of humanity and the planet. They have stopped at nothing to destroy any semblance of peace, prosperity, success or fulfillment of the masses. The truth will soon be coming out about all that they have done, and left to our 3D ways, we could cry for arrests, trials, and persecution. I am calling instead for compassion.

With the surrender of the Chimera and the dismantling of all their technologies, the Cabal are left powerless. Through the mirror containment set up around them by John and I, and other work done by other light-workers and “white hats” in high places, they can no longer succeed. So they are sidelined, no matter how much they may snarl and spit out threats. The gravy train stops now. They, too, have the choice now to transition to the light, taking their skill sets and using them for the light, or at the time of the ascension of this planet, they will be dissolved into Source again.

Humanity is now at a choice point. Do we go backwards and hold our fists in the air shouting for justice, or do we protect ourselves and our planet, yes, but show compassion, and allow these sidelined dark path humans to choose the light? Are we strong enough to shower them with love and forgiveness, showing them that we are stronger than darkness? I feel that the more humanity owns it’s big heartedness, steps into its power, and shines out compassion, the sooner the remaining inertia and illusion of power that the cabal still seems to hold, will just dissolve.

So remember the rose…its velvety texture, its orange and pink beauty, its fragility, the sweet citrus scent, open your heart, step into your power and beam out compassion….for yourself, for others, for the Chimera, for the planet, and for those humans who have played such a dark role. Let’s be the Saviors of this planet.

What Do You Desire?

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I recently read the book “Appetites” by Caroline Knapp. This book is a powerful and honest look at her years living with anorexia, and also dives much deeper into what it is like to be a woman: the roles we are handed, the conflicts with our Mothers and the female role, how society treats and judges women, how we judge ourselves, and how that affects our ability or inability to even acknowledge our appetites/desires, let alone get them met.

I receive numerous emails every day about petitions to sign for political, environmental or social justice causes, so am reminded regularly about how poorly women are treated all over the world: child brides, honor killings, rape, incest, poverty, domestic violence, the sex trade and more. Even in the US there are more women and children killed or abused every day than died in the Vietnam war. Women still earn less than men for the same jobs. Powerful women, political women, still often elicit nasty judgements against themselves for behavior admired in men. The laws in place and proposed to govern a woman’s health and reproductive rights are appalling, with politicians still blaming women for their rapes, and blaming their sexuality as being an issue…the same men who want to have sex with these women?! Feminism may have made some changes in our culture but not many.

Looking at this in a larger more metaphysical way, you can see it in the repression of the Goddess and how healers and medicine women were killed as witches. The female has been vilified in many of the world’s religions. Patriarchy took over and we’ve had wars ever since.

These are some of the things I have worked to change in my private holistic/spiritual healing practice and my social justice activism. But I also see it as a bigger picture because I believe with the ruling elite’s agenda and the cabal basically running this world for so long, ALL people have been kept from truly becoming aware of their deep desires as well as being able to fulfill them. How could any of us do that without balanced, healthy and loved female and male aspects of ourselves?

I loved reading the book in light of the changes now taking place on the planet, as we work to finally and completely oust the dark’s rule, reclaim our “original blessing” and existence as a divine co-creator with Spirit. And I appreciated the private places it led me to as I examined the issues I grew up with about self identity and lack of self acceptance, handed to me by my wounded Mother and Father, and reinforced by a wounded society.

I grew up thin, so was always able to eat what I chose as far as weight goes, but did grow up with various allergies and chronic asthma. So as I moved into my attempt to heal myself, many various diets were explored and battles were waged against foods I craved and yet knew weren’t good for me. My Mother was a wonderful cook and baker, and not affectionate, so baked goods replaced my needed hugs. I’m a baker as well, so this sugar war has been waged over and over throughout the years.

I had one brief bout of anorexia the summer and fall before graduating from college. I had been teaching for a year at my son’s wonderful alternative pre-school but was required to quit that job and teach in a “real school” as a student teacher, in order to receive my degree in education. The upcoming stress of that, and the experience of working within the restrictions of that public school, the knowledge that I was graduating with a degree I didn’t know what to do with and the then requirement to fully support my son and I alone, led me to put weight on for the first time in my life. I had no idea how to respond to that as it seemed to have nothing to do with how much or little I ate, so I just mostly quit eating. By the time I graduated that semester I had given myself an ulcer.

Although I didn’t grow up fat, I was well acquainted with the teasing and judging, at the hand of school mates, for being thin, having freckles, wearing glasses, having asthma and being smart. So the self judging part of childhood seemed to rule my life. I also was quite aware of how others were treated, as my early activism was born. My family was quite critical and that led me to struggle with identifying what I truly desired and left me feeling guilty for wanting anything at all. Both my parents weren’t able to pursue their dreams and my Father didn’t even want to be married to my Mother but remained so under his Father’s rule. So the model of healthy awareness of desires, what would be fulfilling and the acceptance and healthy acquisition of those, was absent in my family. and life.

I am grateful to have tools to use to address all of this now as well as my understanding of how this fits with the bigger picture transformation taking place on the planet. We are all in the midst of clearing out the emotional baggage and limitations that have plagued us for so long. As we move up to higher dimensions and toward ascension only loving, light selves can make that transition. Anything else is too dense. So I welcomed this opportunity that this book afforded me and the healing it led me to do.

Imagine a world where we grow up loving ourselves, knowing our self to be lovable, fully attuned to our body, our sexuality, our desires and the ability and support to pursue the fulfillment of those in a healthy way. Imagine a world where women are honored and respected, and the female aspect within all of us is celebrated and nurtured. I’m excited to live in THAT world! And it starts within us.

What are your deepest desires?

What are you hungry for and perhaps weren’t allowed to have?

What would fill and nurture that most vulnerable part of yourself?

These are great questions to ask yourself.

Please join the conversation and share below, too!

Thanks for reading, thanks for being a part of this world and it’s transformation, thanks for being YOU, wondrous YOU!!!!

Your value is the product of your thoughts…

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In our society, reclaiming our self value can be a long journey. Some cultures and families fully support their children and each other in a way that bolsters self esteem, self worth, self love and self value but many don’t at all.

With how our world has been run by the dark elite for so long, institutions, governments, and religions, were designed to keep people down, feeling devalued and lacking so they could be controlled. So this has been pervasive in our world.

I grew up with two critical parents, school mates that rejected me and devalued me, and that became my norm. In my lifelong quest to heal asthma, I realized how much of the time I held my breath so as not to wheeze, and tried to be as small as possible, take up as little room as I could, so as not to attract any more negative attention. When I did attempt to shine my light it was deemed too bright, so I kept that hidden as well.

My healing process has taken a long time and I’m so grateful for the various healers who helped me and the many techniques I learned to assist myself. This journey to self love and self valuing isn’t an easy quest, but oh so worth it.

The truth of who we are is divine co-creators with Spirit/source. Anything less than that is a lie. We were meant to shine bright and shine BIG! Love is who we are and to keep that covered not only hurts the world but it also hurts ourselves.

The time of the planet is one where we are all being called to reclaim this divinity, this light, this love and fill ourselves up, letting it seep out to the world. Imagine a world with all of us shining bright! Then together we can create a planet of peace, abundance, joy, wholeness.

You are a very valuable part of this creation. I honor you. Shine on dear one, shine on!!!!!

Otrazhenie

From http://www.santabanta.com

Have a wonderful week 🙂 

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The Feminine Factor – week 4

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I believe this is a most powerful post!
When I was growing up, my Mother would often tell me I was being selfish when I was merely asking for what I wanted, non-material things. So I grew up being the people pleaser, letting people walk on me, take advantage of me. I was often blamed for things I hadn’t done…by neighborhood kids and later friends, friends who believed someone else over me. I have worked long and hard to regain self esteem, self worth and learn how to set boundaries. And…to learn to receive, that it is ok to receive. But this article shows me there is more to do around this topic! Hope you find this article as helpful as it is for me.

The Constant Companions via Aisha North: The Manuscript of Survival – Part 416 « Golden Age of Gaia

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The Constant Companions via Aisha North: The Manuscript of Survival – Part 416 « Golden Age of Gaia.

via The Constant Companions via Aisha North: The Manuscript of Survival – Part 416 « Golden Age of Gaia.

I sometimes just skim this channel’s posts but something led me to read the entire post today and I’m glad that I did, as it really spoke to me.

Since I had remembered past lives since age 3, been walking in and out of other dimensions and interacting with various spiritual beings, I faced much criticism and doctors even tried to diagnose me as mentally ill. My parents kept telling me to “face reality” and I just couldn’t understand why anyone would want to limit themselves so much when what I saw was so much more vast and beautiful.

At age 8, I started exploring other religions, looking for answers. I made my way through the local Christian churches, the Catholic church, the Quaker church in another town, various eastern religions and gurus, a brief exploration of the Muslim religions, the Native American medicine wheel and many other spiritual/metaphysical/new age/new thought churches and groups.

I was looking for something to explain my memories and to create a sense of belonging. Growing up with so much rejection and judgement, I had learned to hide my light, attempting to fit in, but never too successfully. I had weak lungs since birth as my Mom’s doctor took me a month early as a c-section baby so he could go on vacation. So this stuffing my light only served to exacerbate the lung challenges and also led to deep, long depressions and suicidal thoughts, and all of that led to more isolation and rejection.

I felt like this light that I knew myself to be was too bright, too big, and so I just held it in. Then I went searching for a way to fill up that space and become whole again. And many of the answers I sought were a search for a way to heal my physical and emotional body. That led me ultimately back to my spiritual self.

I had also held in my light not just because my family and classmates were judging me for my experiences and my differences but because of a fear that once again in this life I would be harmed for shining my light, like my past life memories had shown me at such a young age.

I’m grateful for my journey through all these various paths, and am just as grateful for finally returning to my truth, that my light is ME, and it is not only ok to shine my light, it is imperative for my health and well being and that of the world.

I know this story might not be “YOUR” story but I bet that some of it is, so let’s hold hands and together step into the greater US, and together we can step up into the higher dimensions and live the life of our dreams!

Shine on brothers and sisters, shine bright, shine BIG!!!!!

Staying True In The Midst Of Other’s Perceptions!

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Throughout this almost year long journey I have been mostly staying in other people’s homes. Stepping into someone else’s home involves stepping into different house rules, perceptions, beliefs, needs, expectations and many of these are not overtly expressed. Some of the places I have stayed I have arranged through bartering my healing therapies, dog walking, cleaning, cooking, and organizing. among other skills. I’m not the best negotiator, as my nature is giving and generous, but my communication is clear, so I have done what I could to clearly and cleanly negotiate an arrangement that honored me as well as the other person. What I often found though, is that although I often give much more than is agreed upon, the other person would often change the agreement mid-stream, demanding more or even turning it around to make it appear that I hadn’t given enough?! This was always a shocking experience to me as I thought all had been clear in the beginning and as I stated, I always made sure I gave more than I had agreed upon.

I have always been a flexible, adaptable person, pretty easy going, and focused on being aware of others’ needs so as to keep things going smoothly. This journey though has led me into homes of hosts with almost OCD demands and house rules that even the most astute and dedicated house guest could not begin to adhere to or even decipher; homes of hosts living in their own words “just this side of disgusting” as far as cleanliness; homes of hosts that were controlling, raging alcoholics, noisy, quiet, outgoing, reclusive, vegetarians, meat eaters, and everything in between. Navigating all of these varied situations in addition to the different climates and cities to smaller towns has been quite challenging and stressful. And yet, I’m sure there has been a reason for this journey.

I know without a doubt that I have brought healing to so many people and areas because my recipients have acknowledged this, and I know that it has brought me healing and helped me stand in my power more and taught me to set better boundaries. Along with all this learning though, questions still remain.

I am presently staying with a warm, generous couple who love God, love Jesus, believe strongly in their beliefs and state that they don’t judge. And yet…..when I offer to do the healing work I have done since childhood, the work I was led to through my spiritual experiences with Jesus, my work is deemed unacceptable. When I have questioned why it was deemed acceptable that Jesus could do healing work and yet my work is deemed questionable, perhaps even coming from the dark, it is explained that ONLY Jesus could do healing work?! And yet, these people believe in prayer and manifestations they have received through this prayer, which is invoking God and Jesus. But healing work that is invoking Jesus and God’s energy that flows through all of us, is deemed darkness.

I feel so sad when I run into this belief system, as in my understanding, this very belief keeps people feeling separate from God, separate from that innate energy and light that Jesus spoke of so often and demonstrated. I try to not take it personally, and even have tried to point out to them how in-congruent it feels for them to state how much they like me and respect me and then deem my work misguided at the least and channeling darkness at the worst, but they just toss that off as untrue. I see that it is their closed minds and yes, hearts, that is keeping them from receiving all that I could be sharing with them, and I feel sad. As I know there are so many people in the world that live life this way, and it feels so small to me.

To be in the midst of these situations with others projecting their issues onto me, some people rejecting what I have to give or deeming it not enough, has certainly toughened me up in a way and helped me be more detached. It has also conversely helped me know my worth more. Some of the places I have stayed have been like sailing through the smoothest of waters and others have been like walking past walls of sand paper! I do trust though that each circumstance is leading me closer and closer to the deeper work that Jesus told me I was do when I was nine.

I thought I’d be doing it much sooner than this, and I’m sure I’ve been doing it somewhat throughout my life. However, there seems to have been a lot of preparation that was needed first and this journey has been that walk through the fire that was necessary.

I know that this part of the journey is almost over. I am grateful for all of it…and very much looking forward to landing in a soft spot of my own!