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Survive or Celebrate….another poem

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Those of you who have been reading my blog for awhile, know that I grew up remembering horrendous past lives of torture and heinous deaths, along with talking to spirits and knowing my destiny to come in this lifetime,  yet being told by doctors I was crazy and by my parents “face reality”. It took many, many years of counseling, various holistic therapies, working on myself and following my spiritual journey to heal that terror, fear and disconnect, and move into embracing who I am and the reality I believe in and work toward for myself and the world. This poem came from that journey.

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Survive or Celebrate

A scared child sits inside
a strong woman’s breast.
Remembrances of a lonely
childhood sorrow and fears.

Do loved ones always leave?

Letting the child carry on
struggling to survive
in a world where dreams
aren’t reality.

Love shares joy and pain
commitments are for now
not forever.
Fight, defend
or let go and celebrate.

A battlefield or
a dance,
the choice is yours.

© Katelon T. Jeffereys

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How About Some Compassion?

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Before I move into my topic of today, “compassion”, I want to introduce you to the rose in the photo. While living in Seattle for numerous years, Lincoln Park became my haven. I am a country girl and big cities are challenging to me. I often walked in Lincoln park, up in the forested areas and down by the Puget Sound. There was a path I loved to take, starting at the north end, down an alley of sorts, behind a row of houses on the water. I love beauty, flowers and smells, so I had a “smell” routine, stopping along the path to sniff my favorites as I walked toward the path along the sound. This rose was my favorite. Notice its fragile beauty. Can you feel the softness of the petals, almost cool to touch? Can you see the delicate orange and pink color? If you lean in, you can smell the enticing citrus scent…so delicious you can almost taste it. That is compassion. To behold the beauty, gently holding another, taking in the vision, fragility, and yes, even the scent. In that action, you behold the divinity in another. No matter what they’ve done, or said, you see beyond that, just as we risk the thorns of a rose so that we can be touched by the beauty. I’d like you to remember that rose and call upon its beauty, fragility, scent and feel, so that when you need to call upon compassion, you have a tool to bring you into that place.

If you’ve been following my blog, you know that my lifetimes long path has been to fight the dark, since it’s very inception, and bring forth the light. More recently, I’ve deepened my work within the sessions John and I are doing, leading us to work more directly with the Chimera, dark forces who have ruled this planet for 25,000 years, and the cabal, humans playing out these dark agendas. You can read more details on John’s blog http://www.freedom4humanity.wordpress.com. The Chimera have had in place a quarantine around the planet, to keep out the light and prevent it from dispelling the dark and transforming this planet, a veil in place within humanity to keep them from remembering their divinity, and much more dark technologies on the planet and placed within humanity to keep us all enslaved, downtrodden and under their control.

Dark interference and implants were placed in humans, and dark beliefs spread into religions, institutions, and throughout society to keep humans living a very limited life. Certainly there have been breakthroughs from time to time, but the violence here, the awful ways we can treat each other, the atmosphere of fear that is spread through the dark based media and various dark run black ops, keeps humans from knowing the fullness of their power, their hearts, and their divinity. I’m bringing all this up because I want you to know that you are not fully responsible for all those things you think you did poorly, the times you were less than upright in your behavior, etc. I’m not excusing any of us from being responsible, or accountable, as I strive to do that daily. What I am saying is that there ARE reasons beyond your control that have led much of who you have been, how you have been acting or reacting. Add into that the economic slavery placed upon humanity, the toxins spewed into the air physically and electrically, and it is amazing there is as much support, forgiveness, and kindness in humanity at this time. That speaks volumes for the big heartedness of this race called humans. So……have some compassion for yourself first of all, and then for the others around you. Look with softened eyes, a tender heart, reach out with a gentle hand, take a deep breath and feel compassion for all you’ve done, all you’ve been, what others have gone through.

Now, let’s move further out.

The Chimera was a cloned race, created by Ankara, a creator God on a dark path. They were created to occupy and conquer. They were created without light bodies. So these guys didn’t have a chance at all. Ankara surrendered to the light, in the late 90’s and then asked all his cloned races to surrender. The Chimera refused and the planet continued to be held within the grasp of the cabal and the dark technologies. So, they had a choice, and chose to continue their path of darkness. Through the work John and I have been doing though, I learned that at the core of their DNA, they were programmed for darkness. They also had energetic contracts to follow this path. That’s a lot to fight against. And yet, on Oct. 15th, when John and I approached the head of the Chimera and offered him the option of transitioning to the light, with the stipulation that he negotiate a surrender of the entire Chimera forces and shut down all the dark technologies, he took us up on the offer. At the time, he thought he could trick us. But once it was done, he was now held within the light. John assisted him in gaining a light body, and then he went on to obtain the full surrender of the Chimera, and is now working for the light to finish clearing all darkness and bringing the planet and humanity to the light. Ultimately he has chosen to become human, and other Chimera members have made that choice, too. Some of the Chimera chose to return to their own planets. Of those beings who choose to become human, I say WELCOME. And I offer them compassion for the dark roles they were led to play. I’m asking you to have compassion for them as well.

The Cabal and their minions are another matter. These people are human, with light bodies, created from Source and thus light. Although they were subject to the same dark interference and implants we all had, they also made conscious choices to play their dark roles of destruction, greed, control, and deceit, and have wreaked havoc on the health, well-being, structure and finances of humanity and the planet. They have stopped at nothing to destroy any semblance of peace, prosperity, success or fulfillment of the masses. The truth will soon be coming out about all that they have done, and left to our 3D ways, we could cry for arrests, trials, and persecution. I am calling instead for compassion.

With the surrender of the Chimera and the dismantling of all their technologies, the Cabal are left powerless. Through the mirror containment set up around them by John and I, and other work done by other light-workers and “white hats” in high places, they can no longer succeed. So they are sidelined, no matter how much they may snarl and spit out threats. The gravy train stops now. They, too, have the choice now to transition to the light, taking their skill sets and using them for the light, or at the time of the ascension of this planet, they will be dissolved into Source again.

Humanity is now at a choice point. Do we go backwards and hold our fists in the air shouting for justice, or do we protect ourselves and our planet, yes, but show compassion, and allow these sidelined dark path humans to choose the light? Are we strong enough to shower them with love and forgiveness, showing them that we are stronger than darkness? I feel that the more humanity owns it’s big heartedness, steps into its power, and shines out compassion, the sooner the remaining inertia and illusion of power that the cabal still seems to hold, will just dissolve.

So remember the rose…its velvety texture, its orange and pink beauty, its fragility, the sweet citrus scent, open your heart, step into your power and beam out compassion….for yourself, for others, for the Chimera, for the planet, and for those humans who have played such a dark role. Let’s be the Saviors of this planet.

Focusing On the NEW Reality!

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I’ve been feeling pretty weary and alone lately. My entire existence, hundreds of thousands of lifetimes, has been focused on ousting the dark. I had an argument with source stating that it was a BAD idea to let it exist…..but source replied that it would work itself out and LOVE and LIGHT would win in the end. Since I wasn’t willing to leave it to fate, I took on this zealous path, as if I alone would have to be responsible for the job.(little ego there 🙂

As you can imagine, it hasn’t been easy nor has my light been welcome. At the age of two I started remembering past lives of being horribly tortured and killed for doing this work, going against the dark, attempting to wake up humanity in some fashion, and oust the ruling elite. So when I was told at age nine I was here to do it again, I wanted no part of it. But since you can’t run from destiny, I spent years working to release my fear of this work, and fear of getting harmed for doing this work. Of course I haven’t been hung, drowned, or stoned yet (figuratively but not physically at least), but I did a good job myself by taking on severe asthma, spending much of my childhood in emergency rooms and hospitals (and some of my adulthood, too), and many injuries, not to mention many betrayals, abandonment, blah blah.You get the picture.

But……this path has not been without rewards and I wouldn’t give it up for anything, and feel the best is yet to come and we are almost there. WHEW!!!!

Lately, my spiritual healing friend, John, and I, have been going straight to the top of the dark food chain, getting the head of the Chimera to agree to transition to the light, then to meet with the head of the light resistant forces, Ashtar, and negotiate surrender of the Chimera forces and shut down all their technologies within humanity and on the planet. We worked with the resistant hardliner Chimera and the surrender is now complete. I’ve been doing clearing work and spiritual work on my own as well as with John, and through my telepathic communication with the head of the Chimera, who gave us the name “Seth”. Because of this surrender and the work they are doing and we are doing, the cabal and all their minions are soon to be sidelined completely and the planet and humanity moved totally onto a timeline of Oneness, abundance, peace and love. Of course there will still be work to do, but now the work can proceed without hindrance from the dark. You can read more about the work we’ve been doing and more explanation on John’s blog http://www.freedom4humanity.wordpress.com

This work hasn’t been easy and at times i end up in intense pain from attacks, other times I just feel weary of the work and the lack, so far, of outward tangible results in my body, life and in the world. A girl can feel kind of crazy and wonder if it is real or not.

Today though, I got to thinking of this picture I took a few days ago of the reflection of Crystal Pier, Pacific Beach, San Diego. Up until now on this planet, we’ve been living that reflection, told by the dark ruling elite that it is real. We’ve believed it due to their technologies. At times there have been civilizations, such as Lemuria, that saw differently, but they never lasted. We’ve all gotten so caught up in looking at the reflection, believing it is real, that we’re in the water, the depths, rather that truly living in our elevated divine states of being.

I believe that with these shifts taking place, that soon the reflections will be revealed as the lies that they truly are, and it will dissolve before our eyes, and then what will appear solid to us will be the true beauty of the world, the true beauty of ourselves, with opportunities to share that beauty in ways we’ve only dreamed of up until now.

The other day, I was driving home, heading east, as the full moon was rising. I had to pull over because it felt so powerful. I felt in my heart that the light truly was winning and with that feeling, all my lifetimes of struggle, torture and death became worth it.

Here’s to the light and love and New Earth Arising!!!!

Keeping the Faith!

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This planet is going through so much transformation right now, with all the darkness getting flushed to the surface within us and all around us. It would be so easy to just buy into all the fear and believe that all the darkness is the Truth or here to stay. It takes great strength to believe in the light, when all around us might appear dark, but that is the time that our strength and faith is needed the most.

Light is pouring into us and the planet, which can feel unsettling. I used to have very deep depressions, even contemplating suicide at times. It is amazing to me to look back and realize that I don’t go to that place anymore. I still have down days and I have had more stress, betrayal, abandonment, injuries, a tumor surgery, a car accident, some horrible work situations, 3 main moves, a long frustrating law suit, attacks, estrangement from my son (my best friend), …you name it, since Oct. 1999 when my Mom died, the last of my birth family, than in my life up until then. And I’ve presently been on the road for 11 months, now staying in my 25th place. And yes, I have days I feel afraid, days that tears come, like today, days of frustration….but I don’t travel to that dark place anymore because I have filled myself up with so much light.

I have learned that emotions just come and go, thoughts come and go, that I am always connected to source, that good always shines through, that there is always a “plan”, and that in the end, I always end up stronger than before. Sometimes I want to cry “Uncle”, and yet, after all I’ve been through, there remains a curiosity, as I wonder what is next? What solution is going to arise? And something always comes.

So, please, cry when you need to, scream if you have to, and when you are done, fall into your heart and feel that connection with God and your soul, and know all will be well, all is well…and let the light shine!

Journey Orchestrated By Spirit!

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When I left my home in Seattle in Nov 2012, I had no idea what I was going to encounter or how long I’d be on the road before finding home. I envisioned it only being a few weeks or a couple months at the most. I knew I’d always envisioned spending some time on the road being a sort of traveling healer, doing God’s work, but didn’t see it happening as randomly as it has this last 7 + months.

I knew I would be following guidance, as my life is completely spiritually focused now, but I didn’t know that guidance would entail using craigslist often. When I first sat on the computer for hours pouring over listings on craigslist for St. George, Utah, I was chiding myself, feeling like I was cheating and somehow, I was supposed to run into someone and they’d suggest a place for me to go to or stay. But I knew I wanted to see my Navajo daughter and her children in St. George, and so found a B and B to stay in, and trade therapy for part of the cost. I ended up giving the owners 4 long therapy sessions after only agreeing to do one, and it led to other healing work as well. Plus, I was led to tour two resorts I had researched online years before, and make a connection with a man also interested in creating wellness centers/communities like me.

My second place to stay on my journey involved a request on facebook that led me to a cat sitting engagement in Sedona, AZ. My 4th place to stay (St. George being the 3rd), was with a facebook friend in Sedona, AZ. Healing had been involved everyplace I stayed whether it was with my host or people I met along the way and it seemed line the internet was the connector!

At one point I started posting ads on craigslist, looking for places I could stay in exchange for bartering therapy. Again, that led me to a place in Tucson, with me doing regularly healing work on my host as well as others I met there. And then, my ad led me to a couple in Dewey, AZ who owned an earthship. Again, my healing work was needed, as well as house sitting, for them and others I met in Prescott. The connection with them, led me to the man’s mother, who when I then needed another place to stay, led me to my present place and dog sitting in Ventura, CA. And again, more healing is needed, thus delivered.

There have been times I have worried about where I’m going to stay next, when my deeper work that I feel is soon to come will actually come, when I will finally arrive at my home base so I can settle once again into my own home. And yet, looking back at this journey, how one post, one question, one conversation, has led me every step of the way. I can see a higher hand in this journey, feeling my placement where healing is needed for a person, a home, an area; and seeing how all the “dots” are connected, as they lead me to my destiny and home.

And then I wonder how I can doubt or worry at all!!!!!

The Journey Continues and Continues and Continues……

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I’ve been on this journey for over 28 weeks, now packing up to leave my present place, the 13th place I’ve stayed, not including places I stayed for one or two nights. As I’ve written before, I leaped out of Seattle 3 1/2 weeks after making the decision to go, working up until the day I left, managing to sell some things, pack, move storage units, pack my car and head out. I left thinking all I needed to do was make it until the prophesied 12/21/12 shift. I figured by then, my next level of work, the work I have prepared for all my life, the work Jesus had told me about when I was nine years old would arrive. I figured that with that work, my income would be provided and all would be well.

I had known almost since arriving in Seattle that it wasn’t my home and I needed to leave, but I kept waiting for many reasons. My son was there, who was my best friend, and we were attempting to market workshops we wanted to do together. Then my Mom died, ending my birth family, and my life felt shattered. Then my son started leaving my life, ending up leaving it three times , has been gone for over 6 years this time, and my heart felt even more shattered. So with all of that, I didn’t have the strength to just pick up and leap, not knowing where to go. So I stayed and stayed.

Then, I kept waiting hoping for some financial windfall that would fund my leap, or an offer or opportunity to move to, but that didn’t happen either. But when things were grinding to a halt in my present job and changes were happening in my living space, it felt like Spirit was telling me to go. So…opportunity or not, windfall or not, I chose to leap.

People, who know me through facebook or friendship otherwise, tell me what an inspiration I’ve been to them, how courageous and brave I am, and one of my Mom’s best friends even said that as well. And for much of the time I can feel that, as I acknowledge how much healing has taken place within me and all the healing work I have done on the people I have been lead to stay with, not to mention weeding and cleaning and other tasks I have taken on in my temporary lodgings. I can also see how much this trip has prepared me for my future work as it has stripped away all but the essentials, and forced me to adapt quickly to many different home environments, physical environments, house rules, beds, cooking situations, etc. It has pushed me to challenge the paradigm that states we need to save up for a move, get another job, THEN we move, along with the one that states you pay rent everywhere you go, with cash, as I’ve often traded therapy for my spaces.

At times I struggle to explain this journey to others because how do you describe this mysterious “destiny” dictated to me 52 years ago and all the guidance, learning, studying, praying, and surrender it has taken me to get this far? I am challenged to define to others this unknown as yet home and opportunity that awaits me and is looking for me as much as I’m looking for it? It doesn’t fit into most people’s way of thinking. How do I demonstrate that things did shift on 12/21/12, and are continuing to shift, even though much isn’t apparent in outer reality?

Although I am very grateful for the friends and strangers who have opened their homes to me along the way, all the wonderful people I have met, the people who have donated to me or asked for therapy sessions along the way, and even the challenges I have undergone; in this moment, I am feeling weary, lonely, and uncertain. Yes, I know…all is well, everything is coming into place, stay in my heart, trust…blah blah. But I believe in owning what is mine, even if it is part of the illusion, and right now, I am desiring home, a community where I belong, meaningful work that allows me to share all my gifts and talents, friends whom I can share with who are in proximity to me and not just via emails, FB, and occasional phone calls. I do believe I can be in that place of gratitude and appreciation and yet, still acknowledge those places within me that desire a clear path, an open door, something substantial and clear.

Tomorrow I might be back in a place of excitement, anticipation and joy…but for right now, I’d love to be sitting with a friend, in my own home, in the community that has welcomed me and sharing stories of all the wonderful service I am able to do right now.

A girl can dream….and dreams do come true!

Shining Your Light

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When tragedy happens in our lives, our country, our world, it is easy to move into a feelings of fear, hopelessness, dis-empowerment, anger or hopelessness. It is also easy to just read the immediate signs, rather than looking for truth.

As the world goes through it’s transformation now and we are in the midst of taking back control from institutions, governments, companies, and policies that have served to enslave us for so long, keep us feeling weak, and limited; and as we as individuals are in the process of releasing habits, patterns, and beliefs that have kept us feeling small and kept us from the truth of our beings, it can be overwhelming.

Please don’t give up! Please don’t buy into fear within you or the fear that the media so loves to promote.

Please do keep on staying in your heart, feeling your courage, and shining your light for all to see!

Please do keep your mind, heart and soul pointed toward your deepest dreams for yourself and the world.

You will succeed! And it will be worth the effort, dedication and struggles you have gone through.

So when you need to rest and retreat for awhile, do so. And when you are ready, pick yourself up and shine out some more! The world is in need of your light!

Is Fear Holding You Back?

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The other day I revisited a hike that I like, the Cam Boh trail into the Panther Wash Trail into the Roadrunner Trail. The trails are in the Saguaro National Forest West, outside of Tucson, AZ.  

I had been asking snake spirit to come to me.  Soon after starting the Cam Boh trail, my hiking buddy pointed out a rattlesnake slightly up ahead, with it’s nose and top 1/2 of it’s body under a bush to the side of us, and the bottom 1/2 of it’s body sticking out on the ground.

Many people are afraid of snakes and yet my experience with snakes, (after my fear of them turned into fascination) is that they don’t want to harm you, they’d rather stay out of your way.

I feel that is true of many of the things we are afraid of, as we project into our future or our past, making up these things that might never happen, or making things that did happen bigger than they were at the time.  

When hiking in snake country and season, it is important to stay present and aware, which is a great way to be in all our life.  Then, we are able to stay safe, and make supportive decisions based on the information we are guided to in the moment, and see when something we are afraid of, isn’t really true at all, and if it is, we can make healthy choices to either avoid it, or move past it in a supportive way.

In hypnotherapy and NLP there are techniques to use to help people release a true phobia and move past their fears. If you are in need of such help, please contact me and see if I  can be of service. Otherwise,…stay alert, stay in the moment, breathe and keep moving forward! You will reach your dreams.