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I Stand In Prayer With Standing Rock!

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Katelon T. Jeffereys

I stand in prayer with Standing Rock

I stand in prayer with Gaia

I stand in prayer with humanity

I stand in prayer for clean water, safe water, sacred water

I stand in prayer for clean air, food and soil, too

I stand in prayer for safe, clean, warm housing for all

I stand in prayer for opportunities for all

I stand in prayer for free energy, clean energy

I stand in prayer  for Unity and Oneness, inclusion,  for All people and creatures

I stand in prayer for reparation and sovereignty for Indigenous people everywhere

I stand in prayer for freedom and sovereignty for all

I stand in prayer for all to be treated with respect, honor, love, peace, gentleness, as a sacred being

I stand in prayer for the return of Wholeness, and divinity claimed once again

I stand in prayer for cooperation, healing, peace, light based government, operating for the good of all and the planet, spread across the lands and waters of this earth

I stand in prayer for rejuvenation, full and complete healing, re-claiming, restoring,  perfection

I stand in prayer for the return of joy and wonder, empowerment and balance, comfort and community

Please stand with me as we lift up all those at Standing Rock, all who stand for the light and love, ascension and light restored, throughout this planet and to our galactic supporters

From a song I wrote “Embrace”

“We got to get back to the truth and light

Release the war and the fight

Let’s save the love in the human race

Embrace, Embrace

Embrace, Embrace”

Let me know what you are standing/praying for……..

Love, katelon

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Light heart shaped cloud amidst the darkness, this morning.
Katelon T. Jeffereys

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Update On My Daily Sessions with the “Team”

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Photo by Katelon T Jeffereys.  Pond in front of the Botanical Building, Balboa Park,  San Diego, CA.

I haven’t posted much lately about my energetic level sessions I continue daily to bring about the shift into the light and shutdown of the dark. Ever since the work partnership with John ended in mid- July in such a shocking and confusing way, it has taken me a long time to come to a place of peace, even though there still isn’t understanding. I was so worn out physically by the time our work partnership crashed and burned, that it took me awhile to recover physically as well. On top of that, my finances became very shaky along with many more dark attacks, that still continue. So I’ve been doing all I can, with the help of my light team, to hang on, stay positive and continue to do this work that I had started with John Oct 2014, and have been involved with on my own since the dark first came into creation. Unfortunately, when our work together ended the humans and off planet beings that had been talking to me, sometimes for hours, grew more silent.

 
I used to have hour long “conversations” with some of them, while walking the beach, walking the neighborhood or just sitting around. I still get some information during my daily sessions or sporadically throughout the day, but not as much. They have told me for months now that this shift is done. Occasionally they ask for help and I am guided to do some kind of intervention or authorize a certain kind of help from other beings. I still do clearing and healing work daily for all of them and the shift itself.

 
John and I had focused on bringing all of humanity and the planet onto the timeline of Oneness and abundance. When we started, many on and off planet beings were preaching the need for arrests, violence, trials, and meted out punishments. John and I felt this was very 3D and would result in the continued pattern so entrenched on our planet. For quite awhile, Sheldon Nidle’s posts had the beings he channels talking about a more war like approach to shutting down the dark. But we continued to work toward a more peaceful shift, not disallowing something like house arrests or something milder to get the dark out of the way so this shift could take place, with the shift effectively ending their rule. In the end we hoped for a more enlightened humanity that would allow for forgiveness and the option for any dark members to either shift into the light themselves or have the opportunity to move on to another planet or place where they could continue to learn and grow. However, we agreed that the dark should not be allowed to hold humanity and the planet hostage anymore.

 
I was very heartened to read this latest blog post by Sheldon as it very much validates the work we did. Since losing the work partnership doubt has arisen from time to time, and I’ve been wondering if we really made a difference at all. So to read this post was very comforting. Here is the link: http://www.galacticchannelings.com/english/sheldan15-12-15.html

 
It’s been frustrating to hear every day that this is ready now, going to happen this week, this weekend, this day, to only have it not show up. So that has lead to me questioning my information. Yet I realize that this whole process is like the pond above. We can see the lily pads, the flowers, and yet we can also see the reflections of those. We can see the water, the ripples, and the reflections of that. We can see other reflections of buildings and people next to the pond, yet these are just reflections, not something of substance. And then….there is that fish swimming under the water and who knows what else is below the surface. This reminds me that the experience we are having is an illusion created by the dark, with all their technologies and interferences, and the veil they put in place, keeping us separate from the truth of our divinity and keeping us separate from each other. So what is happening under the surface, and behind the scenes, is getting everything in place for this shift and disclosure. Yes, the dark underlings are fighting to the very end, but they know that end is in sight. The end should have happened in 96 when Anachara surrendered, so the grace period has come and long gone.

 
The other thing I am remembering is that John and I were working to bring all of humanity onto the timeline of Oneness. In 2012, Bill Brockbrader made a big splash when he stepped forward as a whistle blower and was interviewed on Project Camelot. He exposed shocking information about the US military in Iraq and what was really happening beyond what was being fed us through the dark run media. Like all whistleblowers, he did not fare well. He had been drugged, abused, thrown into hospitals and jails, anything to silence him. They finally got him on trumped up charges and threw him in prison. He is out now and in hiding, but still very active in working to shut down the dark on this planet. I researched Bill Brockbrader 2015 and saw more up to date info on him. Forget all the garbage written about him….that is just the dark ruled BS written to attempt to discredit him. The detail I wanted to reference though, is about the information he shared about working on a govt. project called Project Looking Glass, where they would put various components into this huge machine that looked like the space vehicle built in the movie “Contact”. This machine could look at various timelines and what would happen if this was put in place, etc. We’ve had all these timelines operating right next to each other.

 
I realized that is where we are right now….it looks like we are on this dark timeline of Donald Trump as the best the GOP can come up with, rising racism and militarism, increasing temperatures/poverty/discrimination, on and on, and yet….and yet…..there is this timeline being constructed and built upon that IS the timeline of Oneness and Abundance. And with all the various energy portals and gateways opening, the energy pouring into the planet, the work being done on the planet by light workers and many others to shift the financial systems, governments, environment, and the help from off planet and some believe from within the earth (The Argarthans), together we ARE creating and populating this new timeline. I am seeing and feeling that more and more, we are living on THAT timeline and that soon, all who choose, will wake up in that world, as if we’d lived there all along and that becomes our new reality!

 
I’m sure ready to live in that world of cooperation, abundance, rejuvenation, peace,and support in all ways for ALL!

 
So this holiday season, and today on the lovely Winter Solstice, I invite you to take a few moments to imagine THAT world, and what it would feel like to be living and interacting within all that support, comfort and beauty!

 
Here’s to Wonder and Joy for all as we welcome the return of the light…not just for a season but for all time!

 
Much love to you all, Katelon

 

 

Taking Our Power Back!

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What do M and M’s have to do with taking our power back?  Be patient….I will get to that in a while 🙂  They refer to a ritual I created.  But first…some information;

I have read some metaphysical authors talk about the belief that if each individual just faced and healed their own darkness, the world would heal and we could just then move forward in a light based world.  I used to believe that, too, but now, although I believe that is part of the equation, I don’t believe it is the only part.  Through the work I’ve been doing with John,  http://www.freedom4humanity.wordpress.com I’ve learned more about the dark technologies that have been directed at and placed in humanity to keep us in darkness.  I’ve learned more about the veil that was designed to keep us separate from Source and our divinity,  placed over us at the beginning of each life experience, more effective and present with some people than others.  (I remembered past lives since age 2). And what the dark forces and dark humans couldn’t control via these, they made sure to control via false beliefs imbedded in religions, toxins placed in our water, air, food and soil.  I’m not talking about victim consciousness here either, as it is a reality that these people, beings and technologies exist.  So no matter how much inner healing we manage to achieve, these technologies have still existed, and when you throw in dark world governments, dark based economic and financial systems, social structures meant to keep humans enslaved and separate from each other and their divine selves, it makes it hard to shift just our inner reality and make a huge difference.

But…..but……we do have power. We DO have power.  And it is helpful to do our inner work.  I recently read an article by David Hawkins I believe it was…not sure…and it talked about how for each person vibrating at a higher vibration of love, compassion….it helped raise up others, many others, that were stuck in fear or anger.  Just notice the feeling of walking into a room after there has been an argument in it, or watching the news, and feel the density of the energy vs. walking into a calm, peaceful garden, or a home filled with love.    So how you feel about yourself and others DOES make a difference.  As each of us does our inner work to face and release old limiting beliefs, habits and perceptions, we help shift the environment around us, which helps raise the consciousness of the planet.  The more the consciousness of the planet is shifted, the harder it is for the dark to remain in control.

I feel that the various uprisings around the world, the protests, the occupy movement, those marching in Ferguson demanding a revision of lopsided governing that targets people of color, forces us as individuals and those governing to begin to question their own darkness and begin that important and powerful process of facing and releasing the perceptions that keep us all in fear and reaction.

At the same time though, through these daily sessions I am doing with John, I am seeing first hand how important it has been to work to shut down these dark forces, and dark humans, to assist in moving them to surrender.  This surrender has happened and we are just waiting now for the public announcement to acknowledge this to the world.  Once that happens, the technologies will finish being shut down around the planet and within humans, the clean up can happen to restore our planet to health and wholeness and we will shift onto a timeline of Oneness, and be reunited with our divine selves.  So all the inner work will have served to assist us in getting to this point and in living in Oneness once this shift happens.  Each time someone wakes up, takes back their power, the dark loses and is informed of the loss of their control.

John and I have targeted for this transition to happen with peaceful surrender and not arrests and trials, as that supports a timeline of Oneness and love, and those we are working with in these sessions have been targeting the same.  Even after the shift though, I believe that it will still be important and valid to learn to take back our power.  We will be living in a new world, reconnected to our ability to create and manifest, so we will be adjusting to this new way of being in a new world.

So now….for some ideas on taking back our power:

In 2013, I was on one of my favorite hikes, the West Fork in Sedona, AZ.  The trail winds back and forth across a river bed, in between lovely striated red and black cliffs.  As I began my walk, I was led to start stating, out loud, things I was choosing to release and forgive within me….being a victim….and that led me to release all the ways humanity had been victims…and that led me to release and forgive all the perpetrators ….being angry….leading to releasing all the anger in the world…leading to releasing all the situations and controls in the world that led to that anger….on and on I named things…some in broad general terms, others in specific incidents, individuals and habits.  I did this all the way in until I had finished that part of the journey.  I stopped and rested, taking time to soak in the beauty of my surroundings and all that had been released.  On the way back, I felt this tug on my shirt, feeling a strong energy and guidance, and so I started taking back my power from that person I had felt victimized by, then taking back power for all those who had felt victimized, then taking back power for all those who had gotten stuck in being abusers….on and on it went through all the list I had been releasing for on the way in, all the way to my return to the trail head.

In 2012, I was led to do a ritual to take back my power.  I wanted it to be something fun. and I wanted to use something that I could eat, so I could get a tangible feeling of taking my power back into me, to assimilate, to be nourished by, to reabsorb back into my system.  So I created the M and M ritual.

I’ve been using stevia for many months now, so could not consume an M and M now, but back then, it worked.  You could use anything…almonds, strawberries, jello shots if that is your thing, anything that brings you comfort and pleasure.  I love creating sacred circles, so I placed a mug, that to me symbolized power, into the center of a circle.  All around the circle I placed markers for each person, situation and event that I was going to take back my power from, some with physical objects that represented them, others with just the name written on a piece of paper.

I called in the four directions and all the spiritual beings that I call in for my sacred circle.  Then I sat there, and taking an M and M in my hand, I spoke of the person, situation, event, feeling, ailment, etc. and how I had given my power away to them, placing an M and M next to their marker. I did this for everything around the circle. Then, I went around again and ceremoniously took each M and M from each marker, announcing that I was now taking back my power, and placed each M and M, in the mug. I took my time to acknowledge the act of taking back my power from each of these people, ailments, circumstances.  Then, finally, I ate the M and M’s, one by one, again, taking the time to acknowledge, that I was now returning the power to me from giving it away to ……fill in the blank.  I chose to use M and M peanuts, as I wanted to acknowledge how nuts it is to give away our power. It may look sweet in the moment and be dressed in alluring colors..but at the core, it is nuts!!!

My career has been based on helping people take back their power, clearing away the dross that hides that bright diamond of YOU inside, using 16+ therapies to create individualized sessions for assistance.  Once this dark surrender is announced, we will be able to make progress in our healing much more quickly, with no more roadblocks to our success.  If I can help you in any way, please let me know.

My website http://www.empowerandbalance.com has several meditations, stress release and energy medicine techniques there for free or donation, to assist you, and lists my therapies and other offerings as well.

We are almost to the end of this dark time friends, please join me in the light!!

 

love, katelon

How About Some Compassion?

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Before I move into my topic of today, “compassion”, I want to introduce you to the rose in the photo. While living in Seattle for numerous years, Lincoln Park became my haven. I am a country girl and big cities are challenging to me. I often walked in Lincoln park, up in the forested areas and down by the Puget Sound. There was a path I loved to take, starting at the north end, down an alley of sorts, behind a row of houses on the water. I love beauty, flowers and smells, so I had a “smell” routine, stopping along the path to sniff my favorites as I walked toward the path along the sound. This rose was my favorite. Notice its fragile beauty. Can you feel the softness of the petals, almost cool to touch? Can you see the delicate orange and pink color? If you lean in, you can smell the enticing citrus scent…so delicious you can almost taste it. That is compassion. To behold the beauty, gently holding another, taking in the vision, fragility, and yes, even the scent. In that action, you behold the divinity in another. No matter what they’ve done, or said, you see beyond that, just as we risk the thorns of a rose so that we can be touched by the beauty. I’d like you to remember that rose and call upon its beauty, fragility, scent and feel, so that when you need to call upon compassion, you have a tool to bring you into that place.

If you’ve been following my blog, you know that my lifetimes long path has been to fight the dark, since it’s very inception, and bring forth the light. More recently, I’ve deepened my work within the sessions John and I are doing, leading us to work more directly with the Chimera, dark forces who have ruled this planet for 25,000 years, and the cabal, humans playing out these dark agendas. You can read more details on John’s blog http://www.freedom4humanity.wordpress.com. The Chimera have had in place a quarantine around the planet, to keep out the light and prevent it from dispelling the dark and transforming this planet, a veil in place within humanity to keep them from remembering their divinity, and much more dark technologies on the planet and placed within humanity to keep us all enslaved, downtrodden and under their control.

Dark interference and implants were placed in humans, and dark beliefs spread into religions, institutions, and throughout society to keep humans living a very limited life. Certainly there have been breakthroughs from time to time, but the violence here, the awful ways we can treat each other, the atmosphere of fear that is spread through the dark based media and various dark run black ops, keeps humans from knowing the fullness of their power, their hearts, and their divinity. I’m bringing all this up because I want you to know that you are not fully responsible for all those things you think you did poorly, the times you were less than upright in your behavior, etc. I’m not excusing any of us from being responsible, or accountable, as I strive to do that daily. What I am saying is that there ARE reasons beyond your control that have led much of who you have been, how you have been acting or reacting. Add into that the economic slavery placed upon humanity, the toxins spewed into the air physically and electrically, and it is amazing there is as much support, forgiveness, and kindness in humanity at this time. That speaks volumes for the big heartedness of this race called humans. So……have some compassion for yourself first of all, and then for the others around you. Look with softened eyes, a tender heart, reach out with a gentle hand, take a deep breath and feel compassion for all you’ve done, all you’ve been, what others have gone through.

Now, let’s move further out.

The Chimera was a cloned race, created by Ankara, a creator God on a dark path. They were created to occupy and conquer. They were created without light bodies. So these guys didn’t have a chance at all. Ankara surrendered to the light, in the late 90’s and then asked all his cloned races to surrender. The Chimera refused and the planet continued to be held within the grasp of the cabal and the dark technologies. So, they had a choice, and chose to continue their path of darkness. Through the work John and I have been doing though, I learned that at the core of their DNA, they were programmed for darkness. They also had energetic contracts to follow this path. That’s a lot to fight against. And yet, on Oct. 15th, when John and I approached the head of the Chimera and offered him the option of transitioning to the light, with the stipulation that he negotiate a surrender of the entire Chimera forces and shut down all the dark technologies, he took us up on the offer. At the time, he thought he could trick us. But once it was done, he was now held within the light. John assisted him in gaining a light body, and then he went on to obtain the full surrender of the Chimera, and is now working for the light to finish clearing all darkness and bringing the planet and humanity to the light. Ultimately he has chosen to become human, and other Chimera members have made that choice, too. Some of the Chimera chose to return to their own planets. Of those beings who choose to become human, I say WELCOME. And I offer them compassion for the dark roles they were led to play. I’m asking you to have compassion for them as well.

The Cabal and their minions are another matter. These people are human, with light bodies, created from Source and thus light. Although they were subject to the same dark interference and implants we all had, they also made conscious choices to play their dark roles of destruction, greed, control, and deceit, and have wreaked havoc on the health, well-being, structure and finances of humanity and the planet. They have stopped at nothing to destroy any semblance of peace, prosperity, success or fulfillment of the masses. The truth will soon be coming out about all that they have done, and left to our 3D ways, we could cry for arrests, trials, and persecution. I am calling instead for compassion.

With the surrender of the Chimera and the dismantling of all their technologies, the Cabal are left powerless. Through the mirror containment set up around them by John and I, and other work done by other light-workers and “white hats” in high places, they can no longer succeed. So they are sidelined, no matter how much they may snarl and spit out threats. The gravy train stops now. They, too, have the choice now to transition to the light, taking their skill sets and using them for the light, or at the time of the ascension of this planet, they will be dissolved into Source again.

Humanity is now at a choice point. Do we go backwards and hold our fists in the air shouting for justice, or do we protect ourselves and our planet, yes, but show compassion, and allow these sidelined dark path humans to choose the light? Are we strong enough to shower them with love and forgiveness, showing them that we are stronger than darkness? I feel that the more humanity owns it’s big heartedness, steps into its power, and shines out compassion, the sooner the remaining inertia and illusion of power that the cabal still seems to hold, will just dissolve.

So remember the rose…its velvety texture, its orange and pink beauty, its fragility, the sweet citrus scent, open your heart, step into your power and beam out compassion….for yourself, for others, for the Chimera, for the planet, and for those humans who have played such a dark role. Let’s be the Saviors of this planet.

The Constant Companions via Aisha North: The Manuscript of Survival – Part 416 « Golden Age of Gaia

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The Constant Companions via Aisha North: The Manuscript of Survival – Part 416 « Golden Age of Gaia.

via The Constant Companions via Aisha North: The Manuscript of Survival – Part 416 « Golden Age of Gaia.

I sometimes just skim this channel’s posts but something led me to read the entire post today and I’m glad that I did, as it really spoke to me.

Since I had remembered past lives since age 3, been walking in and out of other dimensions and interacting with various spiritual beings, I faced much criticism and doctors even tried to diagnose me as mentally ill. My parents kept telling me to “face reality” and I just couldn’t understand why anyone would want to limit themselves so much when what I saw was so much more vast and beautiful.

At age 8, I started exploring other religions, looking for answers. I made my way through the local Christian churches, the Catholic church, the Quaker church in another town, various eastern religions and gurus, a brief exploration of the Muslim religions, the Native American medicine wheel and many other spiritual/metaphysical/new age/new thought churches and groups.

I was looking for something to explain my memories and to create a sense of belonging. Growing up with so much rejection and judgement, I had learned to hide my light, attempting to fit in, but never too successfully. I had weak lungs since birth as my Mom’s doctor took me a month early as a c-section baby so he could go on vacation. So this stuffing my light only served to exacerbate the lung challenges and also led to deep, long depressions and suicidal thoughts, and all of that led to more isolation and rejection.

I felt like this light that I knew myself to be was too bright, too big, and so I just held it in. Then I went searching for a way to fill up that space and become whole again. And many of the answers I sought were a search for a way to heal my physical and emotional body. That led me ultimately back to my spiritual self.

I had also held in my light not just because my family and classmates were judging me for my experiences and my differences but because of a fear that once again in this life I would be harmed for shining my light, like my past life memories had shown me at such a young age.

I’m grateful for my journey through all these various paths, and am just as grateful for finally returning to my truth, that my light is ME, and it is not only ok to shine my light, it is imperative for my health and well being and that of the world.

I know this story might not be “YOUR” story but I bet that some of it is, so let’s hold hands and together step into the greater US, and together we can step up into the higher dimensions and live the life of our dreams!

Shine on brothers and sisters, shine bright, shine BIG!!!!!

The movie “The Way”, pilgrimages and journeys!

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I recently watched the movie “The Way” and loved it. I had read an article quite awhile ago interviewing Emilio Estevez, the writer, director and co-star in the movie, about the process and working with his Dad, Martin Sheen, the star of the movie. So I was already intrigued. I had also read a book by Shirley Maclaine about her journey on the El Camino de Santiago, and was inspired and fascinated by this journey. The movie focuses on Tom, played by Martin Sheen, as the stoic and traditional father, who finds out his lost son has been found dead, dying just as he had started this pilgrimage. Tom decides to journey the El Camino and spread his son’s ashes along the way. It is a rare emotional decision for him, and his impulsive decision brings him much more than he had envisioned when he started on the way. It is a movie of grief and loss, as well as discovery, friendship and transformation. It is beautiful in it’s unfolding as well as in the luscious scenery.

As I do with most movies, I looked at each character and inquired what I held in common with them and where we were different. Unlike the main character, I would not have been tight lipped like he was, as I am known for my open sharing, but I could relate to his anger, grief and unknowing as he wondered about his son’s whereabouts, felt the pain of their estrangement, and then his anger, grief and loss when his son was found dead. In truth, I am much more like his impetuous, leaping, restless son, Daniel; but you see, I, too, have lost a son, not to death, but to estrangement.Although, like Daniel, I am the one that has leaped into adventure throughout my life and recently on a now 11 month journey of faith.

I looked at the kind and talkative character, Joost, and saw my golden retriever self who assumes that everyone wants to talk to me, know me, be engaged. I looked at the angry, defensive, wounded character, Sara, and saw the me that I have been healing along this journey, as I attempt to make sense of the loss of past relationships and dreams. I looked at the character of Jack, the verbose writer, living out a life much smaller than he had dreamed of, and see how much I have limited myself for way too long.

In watching this movie I realized that I, too, have been on a pilgrimage, not spreading physical ashes of a cremated son, but certainly spreading metaphoric ashes of my past and the relationships in it, as I have revisited many of the towns and places where I have lived, traveled to, or hiked. It was that giving up hope and attachment to my past relationships that was the last step for me, letting go of those last ashes in the bottom of the bag, knowing that this is it, the end…and letting them go in the wind.

It is fitting that I am ending this journey in San Diego, CA. as this is where I spent so much time as a child and adult, vacationing with my family, and then later with my Mom and/or my son. And this is where I spread my Mother’s ashes in Nov. 1999, on my way back to Seattle, where I was living with my son, moving there in Oct. 1998 after leaving Colorado. And here I am finishing this journey in San Diego now, before heading home to Colorado, going full circle. Now, like Tom in the movie, I need to stand next to the ocean, reach down in my bag, and gather the last vestiges of my past relationships and life; gather my long held dreams of the future; and finally and firmly throw these ashes to the wind and the water, letting go and saying goodbye to what was, honoring it and making room for what will take it’s place.

I am grateful for the sweet memories I have of my life up until now. I am grateful for the experience of being a single Mom and managing to stay loving and attentive no matter what challenges I faced. I am grateful for the friends and support I’ve had along this pilgrimage. And now it is time for me to leave this funeral pyre and begin my new adventure, alone, yes, but now with room to let others into my heart, my restored and healed heart. Now it is time for me to go home and settle into my new launching pad for future adventures.

So I encourage you to watch “The Way” and enjoy your journey, wherever it takes you. Remember life is to be lived, not something you got stuck in, so live it with faith and enjoy it along the way.

Love, Katelon

Letting Go, Releasing…isn’t always easy!

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This is a picture taken of the Green River, in Flaming Geyser park, near Black Diamond, WA. I love the angel wings made by the rocks. It is a good image to remember when you are in the process of letting go of a relationship, habit, belief, situation that you need to let go of and are struggling to let go.

Whether it is because I am a Leo astrologically, and loyal because of that; or part of my occasionally dysfunctional people pleasing ways; or just because I’m human, and we humans seem to cling to the past and to people and things we need to let go of, instead of trusting and moving forward to something better, I often will hold on to old relationships when they are toxic, and have long passed their expiration dates. It is especially hard for me when it is someone I am very close to, had some wonderful times with and still love. But as I progress further on my spiritual path, I’m learning that the more I honor myself, the more I learn to love and respect myself, there is no room in my world anymore for people that don’t treat me well, or don’t want me in their lives.

Often I had friends who consistently treated me badly, and I’d make excuses for them, attempt to stick up for myself…sometimes poorly and unskillfully, sometimes with grace, and still keep them in my life, accepting their excuses and the few good things they threw my way at times. I see now how this set me up to attract other similar relationships.

I’ve also seen how my tendency to assume full responsibility for everything in my life, led me to accept responsibility for what wasn’t even mine. As a child, I often got punished for things I was accused of in the neighborhood, things I hadn’t done and my Father would believe others over me. So I grew up believing that no matter what I did, it wasn’t good enough, nor was there any way to protect myself, as my parents surely weren’t standing up for me. This led to quite low self esteem. So others could treat me badly and I’d just go back for more, blaming myself for their behavior.

I’ve worked for years to heal this and regain my self esteem. This almost 10 month journey of mine has been providing the finishing touches on this. Staying with so many different people over the months, setting up agreements before moving in and occasionally having the hosts drop those agreements then blame me, and ask me to leave, when I was already doing more than agreed upon, giving more than agreed upon, has been a great training ground to finally end this unhealthy habit of mine and finally and fully claim self love.

I have a particularly close relationship I have grieved over for years, spent a bunch of money on contacting various healers and counselors to help me heal, doing rituals and my own healing and clearing work, going back and forth between acceptance and letting go and then, feeling like if I only did this or that, it would be a good relationship again and I finally got it! And got it BIG, that relationships take two people, that I’ve done all I can do, and to continue to play my dysfunctional game only keeps me from peace and from fulfilling my spiritual purpose. It also keeps me unavailable for other possible loving relationships that will be mutually supportive and loving.

I am learning that you tell yourself or someone else to let go, but until a certain point is reached, it isn’t possible to fully release. I do believe that meditations, rituals, various techniques are helpful, and I have several on my website http://www.empowerandbalance.com  But I believe it is just a point that you finally reach with grace, that allows you to trust enough, love yourself enough, to just let go. And when that moment arrives, the feeling is so clean, clear and sweet as there is now room for true love and peace to flood in and fill you up.

Know that there is much support all around and within you for assisting you in this release process. And after you let go, you will have room to bring into your life and heart what you truly desire, relationships and situations that truly honor and uplift you.

Love, katelon

Waiting with compassion and joy!

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For those of you who were very excited about and gearing up to Dec. 21, 2012, expecting/hoping/intending for huge shifts and positive manifestations, only to have that day come and go with perhaps some obvious inner shifts but not the outer shifts, you might be feeling pretty worn out like I have been. I’ve read and feel that things have been healing, shifting, transforming internally, and are soon to be seen in the outer world. But this waiting has taken much patience, self love and compassion. The tendency is to feel that nothing is happening as there aren’t many apparent shifts in our lives and outer world. But I can feel that much has taken place behind the scenes. And it is also obvious in all the countries rising up for freedom, and all the lies and ill behavior by governments, leaders, bankers, etc. being exposed. Even now, many changes have taken place and are soon to take place in world banking and revaluation of currency for many countries.

I believe that we choose our parents, co-create our life scenarios, and set up relationships and scenarios we believe we will learn from and the fact that I grew up with asthma, which demanded and taught me great patience, makes sense to me. Years ago I was given the spiritual name, Aradhana, which means to pray without ceasing. The act of Aradhana is to hold prayer in your heart, hold your desire and dream in your heart, and keep that focus, unceasingly, holding the vision as manifested until it actually does. Again, that makes great sense to me.

That doesn’t make it any easier for me these days though. I’ve been on the road for 9 months and although my present situation is comfortable, I am ready to not only find my home base, but to also get busy with the work that was given to me as a young child. I understand that I’ve been doing that work to a certain extent, but I also was told and feel a bigger expression of that work coming.

In our society we are encouraged to push, make things happen, swim upstream, and I’ve been great at that throughout my life, even in my struggle to breathe, raise a child alone, get a degree, work as an alternative therapist at a time when that wasn’t very accepted, and be mostly self employed. And yet, the guidance I’ve been receiving and I feel it is true for everyone these days, is that this is the time to wait and allow our destinies to take form. As I write this, I’m listening to my astrology for August, and as I typed these very sentences, the woman was talking about waiting, and yet at the same time using visualization, and intention to assist in my destiny taking form. Very cool! And I feel that is true. I’m not describing a passive waiting, but a very active waiting, coming from the heart, instead of the mind and ego that says we need to push. When we come from our hearts, we are receptive to the manifestation of what we are co-creating, and yet we are actively assisting that creation through our feelings, thoughts, prayers and visions.

So I invite you to ask yourself what it is you’d really love to have/do/be in your life?

What does that look like?

What does it feel like?

What would you be doing?

How will you feel doing it?

Who will you be with?

Where would you like to be?

As much as possible bring in all the senses, and especially your feelings. When we create from a place of joy and love, we are in our hearts, aligned with our higher selves and spirit, and thus in vibratory resonance with that which we desire. When we get into the FEELING as if we are already doing/being/having all we choose, that supports and builds our manifestations.

And lastly, please continue to release all that doesn’t serve you anymore…circumstances, places, people, habit patterns, thoughts, beliefs, etc. and replace it with love and appreciation for all you’ve done, all that you are, and be compassionate with yourself through this process. When you truly focus on the body, relationships, lives and world you desire, all the yuck that keeps you from having it will rise to the surface for you to love it free. So let it go, thank it all for the lessons, bless it and release it, forgiving yourself for it all, and having compassion for your past ways of being.

I don’t believe it will be much longer until we are truly living on the New Earth, with abundance, freedom, sovereignty, peace, cooperation and harmony for and with all.

Please feel free to share your dreams or any questions in the comment section below.

And, if you need any assistance, please contact through my website http://www.empowerandbalance.com

My Christmas Wish for 2011!

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      I am spending another Christmas alone!  This is my 5th Christmas alone since my son decided to leave my life.  I thought it would get easier, but it hasn’t.  I don’t miss the frantic shopping and crazy need to find the perfect presents, even if it means going in debt to get them.  But I do miss family and sharing the holidays with family.  Things weren’t always easy around my Mom, and holidays could have some tense moments, but I only spent two Christmas’s apart from my Mom in the 48 years I had with her. She always brought my son and I home for Christmas or came to where we were and she always made Christmas special.  But since she is gone now, and my son has left, it is just me.

      Over the past 5 years I have done what I could to attempt to celebrate the holiday, feeding the homeless one Christmas, watching a movie with a couple friends, walking in the snow, meditating, and I value those different experiences.  I appreciate how this loss and aloneness has led me to go deeper into solstice and Christmas and find that spark of light within myself and my life, however it is at the moment.  And I realize there are others all over the world who are alone this day…and certainly plenty of people surrounded by family and cursing it!  

      There is a delicate balance in learning to accept what “is”, find the gift in it all, allow change, and yet also allow and acknowledge the loss, the empty places, and to do it with grace.  Without my sense of God, Christ and other beings of light supporting me through these times, I’m not sure how I would survive…but this light and love that I feel inside and surrounding me keeps me going, keeps me imagining a new life, a new way.  It keeps me holding and nurturing this immaculate concept, this seed of hope that I maintain in myself for the world and for me.

      So my wish for Christmas 2011, is to feel joy, feel peace, no matter what else I am feeling today, to be able to swim the turbulence of grief and loss, and still express the love and sweetness that I am, and feel comforted.  My wish is for a magical opening that returns family to me, but a family of honesty, honor, respect, continuity, commitment, forgiveness and deep love.  These are values I base my life on, and have worked to expand in all areas of my life.  No matter what has happened or what happens in the future, I know that love is the only truth and this is what I extend to my son, to the world, to myself.

     I wish for a world where everyone is respected, differences are embraced and celebrated, as we learn and grow and expand by creating a bigger opening to allow in others and their different ways.  I wish for a world where everyone has a warm, comfortable home; clean and hot water; plenty of food to eat; meaningful work; a loving family, community, country and world where they feel welcomed, appreciated, safe and supported; a strong sense of their own divinity, self-worth and power to create the life and world of their dreams; a deep connection with Spirit in whatever form is comfortable for them; confidence to live their truth; peace within them and all around them; and much joy, magic and fun to lift them up.

      And so, I extend these wishes to all of you, and to myself!  May we all find joy within no matter our circumstances and be able to extend that joy out to others.  May we all find that peace within and send it out to each other, extending the olive branch to create peace everywhere.

Love to you,

Katelon T. Jeffereys
Seattle Life Coach

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“Central Station”, a movie about love and redemption.

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The movie “Central Station” is at times touching, heartbreaking, funny, warm and tragic.  It is  from the late 90″s, but I was recently led to re-watch it and am glad that I did.

 

It is the story of a woman who has closed her heart, is just surviving by collecting money from the poor and illiterate customers she has, by writing letters for them and then not sending them. Whether she sends the letters or not, she is there as a witness to their joys and sorrows, and yet has lost her sense of humanity that would lead her to follow through and send these letters on.

 

One of her customers is a young woman who is sending a letter to the Father of her son, as her son looks on.  She gets killed and the boy seeks the letter writer out, so that he can go find his father. The young boy has also hardened his heart in his grief and destitution.

 

They journey together to find this father, sometimes as enemies and distrusting each other and it is this physical and emotional journey that is at the heart of this movie, and it’s beauty.

 

Watching this movie led me to look at past choices I have made, ways I have closed my heart due to circumstances and events that have taken place. At times the woman character seems to lack any reason for us to sympathize with her or expect redemption. And yet, the movie shows that we all have those loving places within us, there is room for redemption in all of us.

 

At this time on the planet we are being called to open our hearts even more.  I have been a long time activist so it is easy to blame a corporation, a government, a corrupt leader, and act for change.  And I still feel this is valid work, and yet, as a person long schooled in metaphysics and the law of attraction, I understand that this “outer” only reflects me as well, places within me that are carrying limiting beliefs, thus needing to act out in certain ways. I truly believe that as I change myself, it also changes what takes place in the world.

 

So I am led to look at what places within me have I been unwilling to have sympathy for, and see as unworthy of redemption? What happened in those events and circumstances past to close my heart in places?  And what will it take to love those places open and allow redemption to flow in? What will it take to soften these hard places of fear, distrust, pain and sorrow?

 

I feel so much loving energy filling the planet now as we are given these resources to love ourselves free, love the world free, even allowing this energy and love to flow into our darkest places…. internally and externally.  Can we love the dark within us? Can we see those parts of us as just the scared, misinformed parts they became and bring them to us to love and comfort as we would a small child?

 

I feel that this is our deepest work now, to allow our hearts to be opened, embraced, accepted and loved, and then allowing that love to flow out to the world, to the things and people we agree with and to the things and people we do not.

 

Are you ready?  Are you willing?  If so, say, “YES” and feel and notice the love flowing in and setting you free!!!!

 

Your contribution to yourself and the world is greatly appreciated and I witness your gift now!!!

 

And while you are at it, check out the movie! The main actress received an Oscar nomination for best actress and the young boy actor is amazing!

 

Blessings,

 

Katelon T. Jeffereys

Seattle Life Coach

www.empowerandbalance.com