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Sunny Solstice and Beyond!

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Sunrise to the East

I just noticed I haven’t written a post since the 15th, and haven’t even posted someone else’s post since the 23rd. Settling into my present living situation, gearing up for the solstice and full moon and all that is happening within me has consumed my time and energy.

It is so amazing to look back at this almost 34 weeks of being on the road, staying in hotels, B and B’s and other people’s homes; adjusting to the different beds, kitchens, rules, personalities, expectations, etc. has been quite the experience, challenge and learning opportunity. I was adaptable before this journey and even more so now. I have always carved out a sense of home whether it was in a dorm room, traveling in my car, or living/staying somewhere else, but this experience has pushed that limit, too.

I loved the energies of the Solstice. They were intense but felt so sweet. I fell asleep around the actual solstice on the 20th and even during my dreams, I was commenting on how sweet it felt. The next day was the same. I led a ceremony on the phone with my weekly “intention” partner, as we each shared out gratitudes and intentions for our lives and the world. The weekend was busy but again drenched in powerful energies flowing in and lighting me up.

And, as has been the direction of this long journey, I was led to a local chiropractor yesterday who has led me to some other contacts who have been working to create a wellness center, just like me. My journey, inspiration and guidance for that came 34 years ago and I have worked on it and researched it ever since. These synchronistic meetings are coming faster and faster these days as I can look back and see point A connected to point B, leading to point C, etc. all throughout my trip. Even when I question whether I am listening well enough to guidance, my answer always comes with another meeting and opening.

May you be blessed by this light, as you bless the world with your presence and love! May you feel God’s hands along your path and hear the whisper guiding you on.

Much love to you all!

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The Journey Continues and Continues and Continues……

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Pathway view of courthouse rock

I’ve been on this journey for over 28 weeks, now packing up to leave my present place, the 13th place I’ve stayed, not including places I stayed for one or two nights. As I’ve written before, I leaped out of Seattle 3 1/2 weeks after making the decision to go, working up until the day I left, managing to sell some things, pack, move storage units, pack my car and head out. I left thinking all I needed to do was make it until the prophesied 12/21/12 shift. I figured by then, my next level of work, the work I have prepared for all my life, the work Jesus had told me about when I was nine years old would arrive. I figured that with that work, my income would be provided and all would be well.

I had known almost since arriving in Seattle that it wasn’t my home and I needed to leave, but I kept waiting for many reasons. My son was there, who was my best friend, and we were attempting to market workshops we wanted to do together. Then my Mom died, ending my birth family, and my life felt shattered. Then my son started leaving my life, ending up leaving it three times , has been gone for over 6 years this time, and my heart felt even more shattered. So with all of that, I didn’t have the strength to just pick up and leap, not knowing where to go. So I stayed and stayed.

Then, I kept waiting hoping for some financial windfall that would fund my leap, or an offer or opportunity to move to, but that didn’t happen either. But when things were grinding to a halt in my present job and changes were happening in my living space, it felt like Spirit was telling me to go. So…opportunity or not, windfall or not, I chose to leap.

People, who know me through facebook or friendship otherwise, tell me what an inspiration I’ve been to them, how courageous and brave I am, and one of my Mom’s best friends even said that as well. And for much of the time I can feel that, as I acknowledge how much healing has taken place within me and all the healing work I have done on the people I have been lead to stay with, not to mention weeding and cleaning and other tasks I have taken on in my temporary lodgings. I can also see how much this trip has prepared me for my future work as it has stripped away all but the essentials, and forced me to adapt quickly to many different home environments, physical environments, house rules, beds, cooking situations, etc. It has pushed me to challenge the paradigm that states we need to save up for a move, get another job, THEN we move, along with the one that states you pay rent everywhere you go, with cash, as I’ve often traded therapy for my spaces.

At times I struggle to explain this journey to others because how do you describe this mysterious “destiny” dictated to me 52 years ago and all the guidance, learning, studying, praying, and surrender it has taken me to get this far? I am challenged to define to others this unknown as yet home and opportunity that awaits me and is looking for me as much as I’m looking for it? It doesn’t fit into most people’s way of thinking. How do I demonstrate that things did shift on 12/21/12, and are continuing to shift, even though much isn’t apparent in outer reality?

Although I am very grateful for the friends and strangers who have opened their homes to me along the way, all the wonderful people I have met, the people who have donated to me or asked for therapy sessions along the way, and even the challenges I have undergone; in this moment, I am feeling weary, lonely, and uncertain. Yes, I know…all is well, everything is coming into place, stay in my heart, trust…blah blah. But I believe in owning what is mine, even if it is part of the illusion, and right now, I am desiring home, a community where I belong, meaningful work that allows me to share all my gifts and talents, friends whom I can share with who are in proximity to me and not just via emails, FB, and occasional phone calls. I do believe I can be in that place of gratitude and appreciation and yet, still acknowledge those places within me that desire a clear path, an open door, something substantial and clear.

Tomorrow I might be back in a place of excitement, anticipation and joy…but for right now, I’d love to be sitting with a friend, in my own home, in the community that has welcomed me and sharing stories of all the wonderful service I am able to do right now.

A girl can dream….and dreams do come true!

Walking The Path

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End of the walk

I just finished 26 weeks on my journey! No matter how many times I have the realization that I’m being guided, somehow it always seems to just sneak up on me and I go “oh yeah!”

I was in Tucson, AZ for about 9 weeks, thinking that my time would be busy re-uniting with some old friends, making a few new ones, seeing clients again, basically being more involved than I’d been during my Scottsdale, AZ time (was cleansing and purging through most of it, a very challenging time in most ways). Instead, old friends didn’t return my call or if I did get together with them, it only lasted a couple times and they, too, disappeared. I went on hikes 23 times, mostly alone and was often the only one on the trail. I gave one client massage and one client hypnotherapy session and otherwise, only did physical healing work in exchange for my place to stay and the ongoing healing work I do for the planet.

I spent most of my time alone, either with the hikes, reading, walking, being on the computer or doing spiritual work. I did make a few friends and got together with others some, but mostly it was a very quiet, alone time. When it was happening, I felt frustrated some days, wishing it would be different.

Then, while stopping in Ahwatukee, to get some work from a long time chiropractor, I realized how different I’d become since my Tucson sojourn. While in Scottsdale and getting therapy, I felt battered and bruised by many of the circumstances during my stay there, and on Tuesday, I witnessed how my confidence and self esteem had returned, I felt light, peaceful, relaxed and much more empowered. I then was able to see that my time in Tucson had been perfect, guided, exactly what I needed to release the trauma of the Scottsdale time and prepare for what is to come during my journey now.

And once again, I feel cradled in the arms of creation; watched over by Spirit’s love; and completely directed by my soul’s wisdom.

Is Fear Holding You Back?

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The other day I revisited a hike that I like, the Cam Boh trail into the Panther Wash Trail into the Roadrunner Trail. The trails are in the Saguaro National Forest West, outside of Tucson, AZ.  

I had been asking snake spirit to come to me.  Soon after starting the Cam Boh trail, my hiking buddy pointed out a rattlesnake slightly up ahead, with it’s nose and top 1/2 of it’s body under a bush to the side of us, and the bottom 1/2 of it’s body sticking out on the ground.

Many people are afraid of snakes and yet my experience with snakes, (after my fear of them turned into fascination) is that they don’t want to harm you, they’d rather stay out of your way.

I feel that is true of many of the things we are afraid of, as we project into our future or our past, making up these things that might never happen, or making things that did happen bigger than they were at the time.  

When hiking in snake country and season, it is important to stay present and aware, which is a great way to be in all our life.  Then, we are able to stay safe, and make supportive decisions based on the information we are guided to in the moment, and see when something we are afraid of, isn’t really true at all, and if it is, we can make healthy choices to either avoid it, or move past it in a supportive way.

In hypnotherapy and NLP there are techniques to use to help people release a true phobia and move past their fears. If you are in need of such help, please contact me and see if I  can be of service. Otherwise,…stay alert, stay in the moment, breathe and keep moving forward! You will reach your dreams.