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Loving The Dark and The Light!


Sunrise to the East

Years ago I was interviewed on the Humboldt State University radio station, speaking about how individual healing leads to global healing. The show was scheduled way in advance, and as fate had it, I was interviewed on the night the US declared war on Iraq the first time. I wrote a blog post about it, years ago, entitled “Peace, what are you giving and receiving?”. Throughout the years I have explored more deeply into this topic.

Scientists are now proving that we truly are one, that what goes on inside of us affects everyone. It has been documented that large focused group meditations can affect sun spots, and a decline in emergency room visits and crime has been noticed as well. The fact that you can walk into a room after someone has been in an argument and feel it has been scientifically explained.

In 2004, when Dennis Kucinich, one of my heroes, spoke at the University of Washington, he spoke about violence. He talked of being in congress as they were deciding whether to enter or assist in a war going on elsewhere. He said he looked around the room at all these intelligent people and was wondering about this discussion taking place. He decided to look at violence and why it is a part of our reality. As he spoke of this, he was standing at the front of the stage. His first observation was to look at what causes war and violence between countries. Then he stepped back a little bit on the stage and spoke of then looking at what causes violence in a community. Then he stepped back further, as he mentioned looking even more deeply into what causes violence in a family. Then he stepped back even further, as he talked of looking even more deeply into what causes violence within him. It was a very powerful teaching moment.

Today I read an article, a transcript of an “interview” between Steve Beckow interviewing Linda Dillon channeling “Maitreya”. http://goldenageofgaia.com/2013/06/maitreya-i-am-among-many-who-return-to-walk-among-you/

In the interview, Lord Maitreya, spoke of how we as humans feel so guilty, thinking we have done something wrong, are separate from Spirit and so we project that guilt outward as blame. He also spoke of the powerlessness that many feel. Maitreya reminded us that the evil or dark we assign to a Christian, a Muslim, a Hindu, someone of another culture or ethnicity, or the Illuminati, or Cabal, is also represented within each of us. AND, even more importantly, the true nature of all of us is light, love, our connection with Divine source and oneness. To put it in Christian terms, we ALL ate the apple. But even closer to the truth, is that ALL of us never truly left oneness. Our true nature is immense and vast light. This illusion we carry and is taught us, is what keeps us feeling so separate, so easily shaming ourselves and leading to guilt, along with projecting that outward in blaming others or attacking others.

I read a reference the other day to the movie “Cocoon” and it pointed to the scene where the ET’s, took off their human “suits” and underneath they were just light beings. The article reminded us that in truth, we are those light beings, just forgetting that we put on this light suit, and getting so lost in this illusion of separation that we have created this entire history of war and violence, lack and limitation, struggle and challenge on this planet. I used to not understand Buddha’s reference that this world is just illusion. But lately, more and more, I am beginning to see the truth that it really is all an illusion, that we all created this violence and separation out of a lie.

It seems that most of the revered spiritual teachers have spoken of this, all using perhaps different metaphors, such as Jesus reminding us to first seek the kingdom of God, the truth, the light, the love; and others pointing to the truth in other words.

I feel that we are in the midst of waking up to this truth, as this world transforms, and as we do, we will design and create another way of being and living. It feels as if instead of writing the screen play for a disaster movie or a war movie, we will write a new script that is uplifting, beautiful, encouraging; a movie/life/world of peace, cooperation, harmony and joy.

As we learn to forgive ourselves for these perceived mistakes we have committed, forgive others for buying into that same lie, it frees everyone up to take off those warring, angry, violent, fearful human suits and expose our beings of light.

Ah what a blissful time THAT will be!!!!!



            I recently watched the movie “Get Low” and enjoyed it very much.  It is set in the 1930’s in a small southern town.  Bill Murray, Robert Duvall, Sissy Spacek and Lucas Black are all wonderful.  It is touching, sad, sweet, and thoughtful.  It is about a hermit who has placed himself alone for many, many years out of grief, guilt and remorse. He decides to hold a funeral party for himself before he dies so that he and others can tell their stories about him. The movie touches on themes of redemption, unrequited love and reconciliation.


The movie led me to think about how we punish ourselves for so many years, and often many lifetimes, over things we feel badly about or think we should have done differently.  Sometimes it is truly situations and events that we could have/should have handled differently, but at times it is just our miss-perceived guilt.  Some religions teach there is a God that inflicts judgments upon us, but it seems to me that we inflict far worse judgments on ourselves. The truth is that usually, if we could have done things differently we would have, but depending upon our circumstances, our limited skills and or abilities at the time, we made the best choice we could have at the time.


In my life and my work as a alternative therapist, I have seen how this guilt, grief and judgment gets held in our bodies and often leads to accidents and illnesses.  The energy it takes to hold such thoughts of others, and ourselves can become a prison just as this hermit chose his isolation as his prison. We experience wounding from another or ourselves and then spend the rest of our lives creating energetic “Band-Aids” to hold this memory inside. Pretty soon, all of our energy can be used up just to hold all of this down so we don’t have to face it or express it. No wonder so many people in our society end up on anti-depressants and chronic fatigue.  Scientists have shown that we hold memories in the cells of our bodies, and it takes great energy to keep these memories contained.


Often we even forget about this stockpile of old memories and reactions but our bodies don’t forget.  They create our present and future based on the past.  Or if we do remember them, they gain so much power over us that they become the boogieman in the closet.  So in my work and in my life, my strategy is to bring light and love to these old feelings and memories, to heal them, release them, set them and myself free.


Life is really meant for joy, giving and receiving love. We are truly meant to be free.  Yet we have allowed ourselves to live in bondage for so long, and we keep others in bondage as well.  All the great spiritual teachers have demonstrated that love and forgiveness is the answer.


So whether you have me assist you, use some of the meditations and techniques on my website, seek out other healers or techniques, I encourage you to take this journey of reconciliation and redemption.  It certainly makes life more gentle and joyous!

Katelon T. Jeffereys

Seattle Life Coach