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Loving The Dark and The Light!


Sunrise to the East

Years ago I was interviewed on the Humboldt State University radio station, speaking about how individual healing leads to global healing. The show was scheduled way in advance, and as fate had it, I was interviewed on the night the US declared war on Iraq the first time. I wrote a blog post about it, years ago, entitled “Peace, what are you giving and receiving?”. Throughout the years I have explored more deeply into this topic.

Scientists are now proving that we truly are one, that what goes on inside of us affects everyone. It has been documented that large focused group meditations can affect sun spots, and a decline in emergency room visits and crime has been noticed as well. The fact that you can walk into a room after someone has been in an argument and feel it has been scientifically explained.

In 2004, when Dennis Kucinich, one of my heroes, spoke at the University of Washington, he spoke about violence. He talked of being in congress as they were deciding whether to enter or assist in a war going on elsewhere. He said he looked around the room at all these intelligent people and was wondering about this discussion taking place. He decided to look at violence and why it is a part of our reality. As he spoke of this, he was standing at the front of the stage. His first observation was to look at what causes war and violence between countries. Then he stepped back a little bit on the stage and spoke of then looking at what causes violence in a community. Then he stepped back further, as he mentioned looking even more deeply into what causes violence in a family. Then he stepped back even further, as he talked of looking even more deeply into what causes violence within him. It was a very powerful teaching moment.

Today I read an article, a transcript of an “interview” between Steve Beckow interviewing Linda Dillon channeling “Maitreya”. http://goldenageofgaia.com/2013/06/maitreya-i-am-among-many-who-return-to-walk-among-you/

In the interview, Lord Maitreya, spoke of how we as humans feel so guilty, thinking we have done something wrong, are separate from Spirit and so we project that guilt outward as blame. He also spoke of the powerlessness that many feel. Maitreya reminded us that the evil or dark we assign to a Christian, a Muslim, a Hindu, someone of another culture or ethnicity, or the Illuminati, or Cabal, is also represented within each of us. AND, even more importantly, the true nature of all of us is light, love, our connection with Divine source and oneness. To put it in Christian terms, we ALL ate the apple. But even closer to the truth, is that ALL of us never truly left oneness. Our true nature is immense and vast light. This illusion we carry and is taught us, is what keeps us feeling so separate, so easily shaming ourselves and leading to guilt, along with projecting that outward in blaming others or attacking others.

I read a reference the other day to the movie “Cocoon” and it pointed to the scene where the ET’s, took off their human “suits” and underneath they were just light beings. The article reminded us that in truth, we are those light beings, just forgetting that we put on this light suit, and getting so lost in this illusion of separation that we have created this entire history of war and violence, lack and limitation, struggle and challenge on this planet. I used to not understand Buddha’s reference that this world is just illusion. But lately, more and more, I am beginning to see the truth that it really is all an illusion, that we all created this violence and separation out of a lie.

It seems that most of the revered spiritual teachers have spoken of this, all using perhaps different metaphors, such as Jesus reminding us to first seek the kingdom of God, the truth, the light, the love; and others pointing to the truth in other words.

I feel that we are in the midst of waking up to this truth, as this world transforms, and as we do, we will design and create another way of being and living. It feels as if instead of writing the screen play for a disaster movie or a war movie, we will write a new script that is uplifting, beautiful, encouraging; a movie/life/world of peace, cooperation, harmony and joy.

As we learn to forgive ourselves for these perceived mistakes we have committed, forgive others for buying into that same lie, it frees everyone up to take off those warring, angry, violent, fearful human suits and expose our beings of light.

Ah what a blissful time THAT will be!!!!!




      I grew up with a Jewish Mother, who had become a Presbyterian, to fit in with my Presbyterian Dad. When I would go to my Presbyterian bible class for kids, I would tell of my psychic and spiritual experiences and they would assure me they weren’t real. I couldn’t understand this as the bible stories talked of Moses and the burning bush and he was revered and yet I had Jesus and the gang in my backyard and I wasn’t believed?!   I loved Jesus so much, and I loved God, never questioning any of my experiences until they were questioned and dismissed by my bible schoolteachers, parents and doctors.  It left me feeling sad and confused.  My parents were telling me to face reality all while taking me to church to supposedly believe what the teachers and bible told me and yet they denied my direct experience of Jesus and God.  It just didn’t make sense to me, nor did it honor me or support my spirituality.


So luckily, around age 8 or 9,I had the strength, courage and wherewithal to ask to leave their church and I began my journey through most of the Christian churches in our town and later, Quakerism, eastern religions, forays with the American Sikhs led by Yogi Bhajan, Rajneesh, Islam, New Thought Christian churches and my ongoing love of Dances of Universal peace and Sufism.  Dances of Universal Peace was created by Samuel Lewis, a Jewish rabbi, a student of Ruth St. Denis, the mother of modern dance and a student of Hazrat  Inayat Kahn, the man who brought Sufism to this country.  I grew up also surrounded by Native American influences and studied and attended many pueblo dances and Navajo ceremonies.


I still receive judgment from some as “living in darkness” and “not having Jesus in my heart”, which is amazing to me, as I have had direct experience with Jesus, have lived my life completely devoted to God and spirituality, even if it doesn’t fit the mold of traditional religions.  So it was with great relish that I dove into the book, Reluctant Pilgrim, by Enuma Okoro.  An African Catholic father and an African Christian mother raised Enuma in Africa and America.  She talks about her childhood fascination with crucifixes, her love for the ritual of communion, her deep love for Jesus and God and yet her ongoing struggle to really live as she sees a Christian should live…going to church regularly, being a part of a church community and even wanting to help the poor. She describes her attempts to find a church, her cringe worthy discomfort with helping the poor, and her other perceived shortcomings with sincerity, humor and even at times whining!  I loved her honesty and self-depreciating humor. In that way, she reminded me of another favorite author, Anne Lamott.  And what grounds this book is the fact that Enuma got degrees in religion, and yet still she struggled to find the path that honored her devotion and yet were in integrity with her needs.  Throughout it all she weaves in stories of her romantic life, career struggles, family strife and especially her female friendships that support and lift her up. At the end, it seems like she has found a “home” that truly does provide the comfort and belonging that she is seeking.


This book validated my sometimes strange to the world search to take my deep passion and devotion to God and find a place of belonging that honors my understanding and experiences. I know that  the work I am to do completely supports Jesus (Jeshua) and God.  It has been challenging, lonely and painful to travel this path often alone, often judged and rejected by even those closest to me, but still I have kept on because it is hardwired within me to surrender to this spiritual path.  So now, like Enuma, I am ready to dance in joy, in this space of belonging, serving God and humanity in the light, with love!


Katelon T. Jeffereys

Seattle Life Coach