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Keeping the Faith!

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This planet is going through so much transformation right now, with all the darkness getting flushed to the surface within us and all around us. It would be so easy to just buy into all the fear and believe that all the darkness is the Truth or here to stay. It takes great strength to believe in the light, when all around us might appear dark, but that is the time that our strength and faith is needed the most.

Light is pouring into us and the planet, which can feel unsettling. I used to have very deep depressions, even contemplating suicide at times. It is amazing to me to look back and realize that I don’t go to that place anymore. I still have down days and I have had more stress, betrayal, abandonment, injuries, a tumor surgery, a car accident, some horrible work situations, 3 main moves, a long frustrating law suit, attacks, estrangement from my son (my best friend), …you name it, since Oct. 1999 when my Mom died, the last of my birth family, than in my life up until then. And I’ve presently been on the road for 11 months, now staying in my 25th place. And yes, I have days I feel afraid, days that tears come, like today, days of frustration….but I don’t travel to that dark place anymore because I have filled myself up with so much light.

I have learned that emotions just come and go, thoughts come and go, that I am always connected to source, that good always shines through, that there is always a “plan”, and that in the end, I always end up stronger than before. Sometimes I want to cry “Uncle”, and yet, after all I’ve been through, there remains a curiosity, as I wonder what is next? What solution is going to arise? And something always comes.

So, please, cry when you need to, scream if you have to, and when you are done, fall into your heart and feel that connection with God and your soul, and know all will be well, all is well…and let the light shine!

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Journey Orchestrated By Spirit!

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When I left my home in Seattle in Nov 2012, I had no idea what I was going to encounter or how long I’d be on the road before finding home. I envisioned it only being a few weeks or a couple months at the most. I knew I’d always envisioned spending some time on the road being a sort of traveling healer, doing God’s work, but didn’t see it happening as randomly as it has this last 7 + months.

I knew I would be following guidance, as my life is completely spiritually focused now, but I didn’t know that guidance would entail using craigslist often. When I first sat on the computer for hours pouring over listings on craigslist for St. George, Utah, I was chiding myself, feeling like I was cheating and somehow, I was supposed to run into someone and they’d suggest a place for me to go to or stay. But I knew I wanted to see my Navajo daughter and her children in St. George, and so found a B and B to stay in, and trade therapy for part of the cost. I ended up giving the owners 4 long therapy sessions after only agreeing to do one, and it led to other healing work as well. Plus, I was led to tour two resorts I had researched online years before, and make a connection with a man also interested in creating wellness centers/communities like me.

My second place to stay on my journey involved a request on facebook that led me to a cat sitting engagement in Sedona, AZ. My 4th place to stay (St. George being the 3rd), was with a facebook friend in Sedona, AZ. Healing had been involved everyplace I stayed whether it was with my host or people I met along the way and it seemed line the internet was the connector!

At one point I started posting ads on craigslist, looking for places I could stay in exchange for bartering therapy. Again, that led me to a place in Tucson, with me doing regularly healing work on my host as well as others I met there. And then, my ad led me to a couple in Dewey, AZ who owned an earthship. Again, my healing work was needed, as well as house sitting, for them and others I met in Prescott. The connection with them, led me to the man’s mother, who when I then needed another place to stay, led me to my present place and dog sitting in Ventura, CA. And again, more healing is needed, thus delivered.

There have been times I have worried about where I’m going to stay next, when my deeper work that I feel is soon to come will actually come, when I will finally arrive at my home base so I can settle once again into my own home. And yet, looking back at this journey, how one post, one question, one conversation, has led me every step of the way. I can see a higher hand in this journey, feeling my placement where healing is needed for a person, a home, an area; and seeing how all the “dots” are connected, as they lead me to my destiny and home.

And then I wonder how I can doubt or worry at all!!!!!